I really started in earnest my Journey to the Sunlit Uplands of Freedom and Peace just behind you, 15 years ago, after nearly six decades in !
Those years of "journey" have flown by, I have grown up, educated myself, and become the Real Me and truly, consistently Happy for the first time ever in my life. You cannot be truly happy in the Cult, whoever you are.
I am so happy for you, may you long continue to enjoy life and receive its Blessings !