Hi Jojojunfan and welcome.
As a sister I haven't had the same pressure you feel to reach out but I can definately empathise with the pressure for hours.
After much prayerful thought and bible reading, several scriptures came to my mind. One of them was "Come to me all you who are toiling and loaded down and I will refresh you. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me for my yoke is kindly and my load is light".
A nice scripture often quoted, but do you feel the truth of those words?
Is this 10hr edict a light load or a burden? Does it make you feel refreshed or guiltridden and worthless?
You know the answer to these questions, so the next step is to ask yourself, is the 10hr edict really from Jesus? Would He have put such a burden on your shoulders, making you feel so guilty and downhearted that you'd contemplate suicide? Surely not!
This edict is from MEN, not Christ. And as a christian, whose words should you be following?
So don't let the burdens and rules of MEN make you feel downhearted and guilty, for they are the words of Pharisees who burdened the people unnecessarily harshly. How did Jesus feel about such men? He condemned them in the strongest terms!
You have a good heart dear bro so please don't underestimate the value of the kind assistance you give your brothers now. Jehovah isn't interested in men who "reach out" He's interested in the hidden qualities, which are far more precious to him than anything else.