But I constantly thought, "What if they are wrong...." which created a continual struggle mentally.
I always thought that, "what if these people are lying to me" and they got me all stressed out over this mess and it's totally bogus! Those constant doubts are part of the reason (not the only reason) why I just had to let that crap GO!
They worry you to death over doing 'all you can', yet have no real-life solution for someone like me (single parent). They're not doing 'all they can' to address my needs! The needs of the single-parent are ignored and barely mentioned in talks, magazine articles, etc. You want me to do all I can but you ain't doing nothing for me, not even really acknowledging the single-parent or that a great deal of the organization is made up of single-parents.
They only focused on fictional "brady-bunch/cosby/leave-it-beaver" type families and dismiss the single parent and all of things they have to go through in life, trying to raise child(ren) by themselves.
It was all so one-dimension. Nothing for you as person or individual (young, single or old), just support the organization. Go to the meetings and field service, that's it. You don't need anything as a person but the constant dogmatic rhetoric from the W&TS. Y.o.u don't matter; your whole goal and existence in life should be to support the organization, bring other people into the cult and Will everything you got to society after you're dead.
You can't shine as a person, you can't talk about your own personal accomplishes or gifts, you can't take any of the focus off the selfish, mean-spirited, uncaring, cold, dictatorship that is the W&TS.
They F-Up people families lives and don't give two shits about it, they tear relatives apart and don't even look back at the damaged they've caused. They're just on to the next disfellowshipping event. Local disfunctional, bias elders with personal hang-ups go unchecked because the governing body in Brooklyn (ain't governing shit but their brooklyn operations), is up there in the stratosphere and are completely unconcerned as to what's really going on in these local congregations, nor do they care to know (unless it could cause a scandal and dirty-up their reputation). They are only concerned with the 'bigger picture' their publising house and real estate holdings, they don't have time for bottom-feeders.
Yes, all of this makes many individuals in the organization stressed out, worry constantly, never happy, fearful and above all it is extremely burdensome and cruel. That is not what Jesus Christ is about, but that is exactly the method the Watchtower and Tract Society utilizes on a daily basis to control their members.
IMO that's a hellva lot to worry about!
