i'm not shunning the sisters as an act of revange or out of spite. I behave that way mainly because I seek peace. I'm sick and tired of overanalyzing the sisters ugly ways. It affects my happyness. I don't carry any hate in my heart, and I believe in forgiveness. If they change their attitude (which I doubt they will), i'll change mine. Until then, These people are dead to me. No more drama.
Esmeralda001
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Update 8: "fix your attitude, young lady"
by Esmeralda001 inmy study conductor lectured me about my attitude this morning!!!!
apparently some sister complained to her that my attitude was irritating.
the sister in question is just bothered by the fact that i ignore her along with her four daughters.
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Update 8: "fix your attitude, young lady"
by Esmeralda001 inmy study conductor lectured me about my attitude this morning!!!!
apparently some sister complained to her that my attitude was irritating.
the sister in question is just bothered by the fact that i ignore her along with her four daughters.
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Esmeralda001
Hi,
My study conductor lectured me about my attitude this morning!!!! Apparently some sister complained to her that my attitude was irritating. The sister in question is just bothered by the fact that I ignore her along with her four daughters. It is true that I've been shunning a entire group of women the last couple of weeks. What I have to say in my defence is that Ignoring certain members of my congregation has proved to be an effective way to keep chaos and negativity out of my life. I put my brain on "filter mode" twice a week when I attend the meetings: I will greet everybody except for the sisters who have been acting funny with me since my coming back to the org. Quite frankly it feels good to not have to worry about the troublemakers. My focus is on the well-meaning hearts and the "lowly" ones. It's funny,though,how the same people who have been shunning me for months are the ones who take offence at my attitude. Am I not doing them a favour by not acknowledging their existence? They are the ones who taught me by their arrogance that being socially selective is the way to go. My behaviour provides me with confidence and peace. For that reason, i'll continue to ignore the ones who try to make my life miserable.
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1.gain a few pounds
2. Avoid negativity
3. Read the bible on a daily basis
4. Get my first car.
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"High" education
by Esmeralda001 indid any of you guys disregard the wt recommendations and pursue a career.
if you answer "yes": was your journey easy?
are you happy with the end result?
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Rivalry among the sisters
by Esmeralda001 inwhen i was first introduced to the "truth", i was so distracted by the love and affection that the members were showing me that i was ready to convert into the religion without thinking twice.
i was conviced that jws were god's people (i still think some of them are).
i made it my goal to get baptized as i wanted to be part of the "only" religion that produce such good people.
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@GrreatTeacher, good point!
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Rivalry among the sisters
by Esmeralda001 inwhen i was first introduced to the "truth", i was so distracted by the love and affection that the members were showing me that i was ready to convert into the religion without thinking twice.
i was conviced that jws were god's people (i still think some of them are).
i made it my goal to get baptized as i wanted to be part of the "only" religion that produce such good people.
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I'm a full time student who works 25-35hrs/week as a lab technician at my school, so I guess you could say that I'm working full time somewhat. What's so bad about this? Why do the brothers and sisters have a problem with this? Are they going to pay my bills? I don't think so. -
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Rivalry among the sisters
by Esmeralda001 inwhen i was first introduced to the "truth", i was so distracted by the love and affection that the members were showing me that i was ready to convert into the religion without thinking twice.
i was conviced that jws were god's people (i still think some of them are).
i made it my goal to get baptized as i wanted to be part of the "only" religion that produce such good people.
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@longhairgal.I understand what you are saying. Don't think that I don't realize how much harm i'm doing to myself by sticking around. I'm trying to rationalize my fascination. I've been affiliated with the JWs for two years. This might not look like much to you, but it was enough time for me to fall in love with the JWs philosophy . As miserable as I feel, a part of me just refuses to let go. Telling an indoctrinated person to leave a cult is like telling an broken woman to end an abusive relationship. It seems simple and logical. But logic and rationality are the two things that i'm lacking at this point of my life. I don't need to examine the situation any longer. It appears very clear to me: I was looking for God in the wrong place. I will move on! gradually... For now i'm grieving the loss. I'm in a phase of disillusion. I don't feel the energy to attend the meetings anymore. The pain is so great that all I want to do is to copulate. So now not only do I have to accept the truth as it is, I have to fight my sinful tendencies (thank God I don't have a lover, because that would be the cherry on top.) I doubt i'm in an healthy state of mind at this moment. I don't want to deal with this situation. For this reason i'll keep postponing it. When i'm ready, i'll call my study conductor to end my bible study. Satan is misleading human kind. I can't wait for the day where everything will fall into place. Until then, let's pray for the best while expecting the worst.Happy new year y'all . Best wishes! xoxGros bisou! -
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Rivalry among the sisters
by Esmeralda001 inwhen i was first introduced to the "truth", i was so distracted by the love and affection that the members were showing me that i was ready to convert into the religion without thinking twice.
i was conviced that jws were god's people (i still think some of them are).
i made it my goal to get baptized as i wanted to be part of the "only" religion that produce such good people.
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Thank you everyone for sharing your thoughts !
@katewild, is it ok for you if I ask you a few questions concerning your career? I don't want you to feel unconfortable.
@whom ever said that JWs women don't have much going on in their lives: I think it's quite the contrary. They are busy people with busy schedules. Why would a special pioneer wast her precious time gossiping instead of taking care of "spiritual" matters?
@Diogenesister
I do agree with you. The sisters dress up as though they were going to attend a fashion show (which In my opinion is a good thing). It is more noticeable during the special week or during the annual convention. On normal days, most of them dress plainly except for the elderettes and her four daughters. They always look nice and glamorous. You can tell that they put a lot if work in their makeup and nail polish. one day I came to the meeting with a little bit of make up (nothing too dramatic, just mascara and blush) and my hair down (I usually pin my hair for a more professional look). They seemed bothered.
sometimes I wish my friend was still in. I would have someone to talk to before and after the meetings. It doesn't bother me not to fit in any cliques as I'm a looner by nature. I can cope with solitude. What bothers me, though, is that the bratz who actively try to exclude me might think that their sneaky ways make me miserable. This could be the case if my life revolved around the organization... My friend switched congregation for this very issue. I went to the Spanish congregation several times to visite her, I never saw her. The last time I saw her was a year ago. She confessed to me that she was dating a "wordly" men. I hope she didn't get disfellowshipped for that. I hope she is enjoying life!
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Rivalry among the sisters
by Esmeralda001 inwhen i was first introduced to the "truth", i was so distracted by the love and affection that the members were showing me that i was ready to convert into the religion without thinking twice.
i was conviced that jws were god's people (i still think some of them are).
i made it my goal to get baptized as i wanted to be part of the "only" religion that produce such good people.
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When I was first introduced to the "truth", I was so distracted by the love and affection that the members were showing me that I was ready to convert into the religion without thinking twice. I was conviced that JWs were God's people (I still think some of them are). I made it my goal to get baptized as I wanted to be part of the "only" religion that produce such good people. I was ready to drink the kool-aid, but then I left... Eventually I returned only to find out that it was just a facade. The members for the most part no longer feel the need to do the whole love bombing thing they normally do with potential new "recruits". Now that their love has faded, I get to see the organization real colours. Each meething/social gathering I attend gives me the opportunity to reinforce my observations.
One thing I have noticed for quite a while now is the atmosphere of competition in the KH . It is particularly palpable among the sisters. Now some people will argue that is in women nature to be competitive. I agree with you to a certain extent. As an ex ballet dancer, I've experienced feminine rivalry, but never as ferrous and "unhealthy" as in the KH. I don't even think the sisters realize how malicious and hostile and they are towards each other . It is easy for me to see it because I'm being treated like an outsider.
I get weird looks because of my micheal kors boots and watch. (Those are the early gifts that I received from my godfather. I didn't buy them). I also own a collection of High heels and purses which I like to match with different outfits. Next thing you know, sister x will send me subliminal messages through her comments stating that wearing brands is a form of immodesty. Ok... One time I overheard two sisters bashing another sister (who wasn't around of course) because her husband has bought a very expensive mattress. Basically they were accusing the couple of being superficial for not using their resource for the worldwide work. Don't ask me how did these two women get such an information.
The sisters will ignore you while keeping an close eye on you (how ironic). One time I had a sister, who has been ignoring me for months now, literally following me as I was walking through the hall, going from a group of people to another, greeting everybody. she would interropt me, greet the person I was talking to, look at me right in the eyes, and then leave. I think she just wanted to make sure that I knew she was ignoring me. But then again, if i'm unimportant in her eyes, why even bother? A Sister will criticize another sister who wear beautiful clothes and makeup. It feels like high school. What's up with this?
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When you were in
by Esmeralda001 incoucou,.
i hope you are well?!
i have a few questions that i'd like to adress (if you don't mind of course).
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thank you very much @longhairgal!!!!! Although i'm not baptised, I sort of can relate. Your experience will be mine if I don't run away.
take care. Bisous, bisous.