Mine was due to elders interfearing in my family and everything I do. In frustration I came on here to vent and recieved more support from so-called "apostates" than I ever did in the JWs.
Once I read Crises Of Conscience by Ray Franz there was no going back.
Once you realise that the elders have no power over you you stop being so afraid of them. I was disfellowshipped by a bus driver and two window washers.