Posts by pettygrudger

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New Here

by cherry in

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hi folks.

i have been registered for several months.. finally, i got on-line here visiting rayzorblade.

we tried several times to log on but we were definitely missing something.

pettygrudger

Welcome to the board Cherry - any friend of Rayzorblades has got to be one cool dude!

To bad we can't meet you at the end of the month too!

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MY SWAN SONG

by northern girl in

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about seven weeks ago i posted here for the first time.

in that post i said i'd like to be reinstated but felt it likely wouldn't happen because the shunning was too much for me.

well, my prayers have been answered and i am reinstated.

pettygrudger

NG - you're still here?

Guess you weren't as "accepted" as you thought you would be aye? funny - now you fit in in neither world......let that be a lesson. Learn.

There isn't one person here that doesn't WANT to be your friend, and you're making that impossible to do. There's still hope - you still have a chance. You don't have to "go along" to "get along" here, but a little less self-righteous pompous arrogance would go a long way . Or maybe you're a little self-masochist, and getting your jollies - whatever. Or, perhaps you're still working out hostilities.....hmmm....well, as Ravyn said, just another person to put on ignore.

Alan - I believe your assessment to be correct. Trouble is, she's not even 1/2 as enjoyable as Fred Hall was for a time.

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A sobering week

by onacruse in

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this last week i've been doing some painting at a care facility.

quadraplegics, schizophrenics, autistics, down's syndrome.. they come out (or look out, or stare out) of their rooms and "talk" with me while i'm working.. i don't really know how to put this into words, but.... i've got a helluvalot to be thankful for, and "god" has a hellovalot to answer for.. craig

pettygrudger

Onacruse - I'm sure Brian is still beaming today from the small amount of time you were able to share with him, and the kindness you showed.

Little Toe hit the nail on the head - what they teach us is unconditional love. They love freely, openly. Even if you hurt them, they forgive easily, forget quickly and love nothing more than for you to just give them a smile. They appreciate so much of what we all take for granted.

Reminds me of the movie "Shallow Hal". Perhaps if we all were hypnotised by Tony Robbins, we'd find those that we see w/our eyes as "different" or "peculiar" are truly the most beautiful of all. And the things they teach us are things we very quickly forget, how to love, how to be kind, how to be open, how to give.

As little toe said - perhaps we're the ones that are mentally challenged - its a lesson alot of "normal" people never learn.

Our teachers come in unusual guises.

Isn't it funny that those we consider to be the least advantaged teach us the greatest gifts!

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A sobering week

by onacruse in

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this last week i've been doing some painting at a care facility.

quadraplegics, schizophrenics, autistics, down's syndrome.. they come out (or look out, or stare out) of their rooms and "talk" with me while i'm working.. i don't really know how to put this into words, but.... i've got a helluvalot to be thankful for, and "god" has a hellovalot to answer for.. craig

pettygrudger

Having a child w/autism that will probably never function completely independently in the "real world", I can say that his disorder has taught me ALOT. To try to understand people who are "different", to show true compassion & kindness in helping them try to find their way.

My Nick will hopefully never completely understand why he is "different", and he is one happy kid. The people you saw probably weren't unhappy or depressed (I hope). They see things differently, they still have friends. Show them kindness, compassion. Talk to them, befriend them. It will make alot of difference to them, and you'll probably be amazed at how it makes you feel about yourself.

I too consider myself "blessed", just in a different way.

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Roots

by Xena in

in speaking with some people the other day i realized i have no roots....no long term frienships....no family connections.

i went to a party and almost all of the people there knew each other from high school or college or family friends.

i felt so out of place.

pettygrudger

((((Xena))))

Wasn't too long ago I was feeling exactly the same way.

#1 - You're NOT a freak - you are a warm, attractive, funny beautiful human being, with a great sense of justice & intelligence. You COULD fit in anywhere you wanted too!

#2 - while you've lost your roots, this is almost a blessing in disguise. This gives you the opportunity to establish new roots wherever you choose. We don't get to choose our biological families, nor the manner in which we are raised. But, with those no longer being the guide, who you allow into your life and make your own family is all your choosing.

I too have very few "close" friends, but I'm slowly allowing more into my world, and making my own family. Sure, some people think I'm weird, and they don't understand me persee, but I know longer care about that. My family does understand me, they love me unconditionally and they are there for me (and vice versa). It just happens to be that I'm not actually related to any of them

Love ya!!!

Your "sis" (or I'll be a cousin!)

Rhonda

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I feel like such a fool!

by Swan in

i feel like such a fool!.

i was spoofed this week by a 13-year-old girl.

she approached me through yahoo and led me to believe that i had finally made contact with one of my family.

pettygrudger

((((Swan)))) - that really sucks!

I am so sorry for the pain this must have caused you!!! Kids can be so stupid!

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My Spirituality

by oldcrowwoman in

my spirituality is very personal and i am very protective.

for a very good reason after been violated and almost snuff my spirit within me from years of abuse.

i call the wise womyn within.

pettygrudger

I don't see how you can possibly stay alive if you stop learning....

Exactly - in this life we must take all the good we can from the "circles" we evolve into - and out of. Although a painful decision - it should also be a happy one, for it shows you have found the strength to continue the journey. And that's what life is - a constant journey as you mentioned. Sometimes we're alone, sometimes we're not, and only have the memories of who we have shared the journey with. But to not continue the journey is not healthy as you have shared, and its wonderful that you know that. People come & go in our lives - sometimes for life, and sometimes only for a short while. But from all we learn & grow, and as Ravyn said, this means we've lived.

Good luck to you in your choices & a big (((((hug))))) from me!

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TEEJAY

by refiners fire in

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i see tj is "supreme" status.

quite an achievement, i think.

teej, ive always admired you as a poster, i mean that.

pettygrudger

Congrats Teejay - I too have always admired your witty, sometimes sarcastic, intelligent & thoughtful posts.

You're also one fair guy as well.....and not afraid to jump in there & debate with the best of them. You admit weakness (such a wonderful quality in a man) and exhibit so many strenghts, it boggles the mind.

Thanks for your contributions, they are greatly appreciated!

From another Teejay fan!

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Anyway to meet xjw's in toronto area?

by micheal in

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i would love to meet up with anyone from the greater toronto area.

right now really being shunned, just left and need some support.. thanx, would mean more than you know.

pettygrudger

Hoping you're okay Michael - and yes - there are a few REALLY cool toronto people - i think if you actually met a few of us here in Michigan, you'd feel alot better. We have in our "group" ex-bethelites, ex-P.O.'s and 1 that was a pretty big "heavy hitter" in that organization. You'll find a lot of support and probably some very good REAL friends, not ones that will turn their backs to you because you no longer "believe" the same thing about God.

Give it a try Michael - I think you'll be glad you did.

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Oh Where or Where did Our Brummie Go?

by pettygrudger in

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oh where or where could he be..... his face was white & his hair cute orange.

hey brummie - da b**ches be wondering where you got off too!!!!.

missing the furry little cherubic face, oh here kitty kitty kitty.....

pettygrudger

Seriously though Brummie - good for you......a healthy balance between real world activities & cyber space is a needed thing for one's own mental well being. I hope that things are going well for you, as your comments would lead one to think that perhaps you're feeling a bit down. I truly hope that is not the case. Make the move back home if that's where you belong......there's no sense in not living where you'd be happiest!

And remember, we're here as much for you as you have been for everyone else - don't forget that.

Anyways, I'm just glad to see ya - I thought we may have lost you to the Playboy bunnie b**tches forever!

Love ya!