While I understand enduring things due to a family situation, remember that forcing yourself for family reasons is very different. One doesn't "force" a family experience. If you have to, then it means you are not really part of that family anymore or that the family may not really be there. There is a big elephant in the room. Elephants don't stay still. They will eventually stomp things and all will end up destroyed.
It sounds horrible, but cults are burning buildings. All of them are. You can try to save who you can from them, but eventually time will run out and you will have to choose whether you are going to survive or burn with those who won't leave. There's no easy out in a cult.
David _jay
I know where you are coming from. But I love my family. Thats the thing. I attend for them. I've tried to fade a few times. For me...here and now....it's a no no. It's hard to explain, but I suppose it kind of feels like i'm stuck in a Genie flask. No way out at mo.
I'm trying to work my way out of this high control publishing corporation with minimal colatoral damage! Maybe one day, my wife's eyes will be fully opened and I can open my heart. At the moment, I need to tread carefully. Thanks for your input though, as do agree with your thoughts.