My mother became a jdub when I was 16. She changed from a devout Catholic to a devout jw. She constantly preached to me. At 22 decided to have a study. I was young and questioning life. The jdubs 'seemed' to have all the answers.
I believed, I truly believed. I was ablaze with what I was learning for the first year. I had some doubts just before my baptism and wanted to allow more time before making a commitment, but my study conductor coerced me into getting baptised sooner as Satan's ploy was to put me off. Still angry about this to this day.😠😠.
Instead, I focused on all the good stuff... You know everlasting life, happiness, paradise earth. I had no idea about all the goodies to come over the years... The cruel shunning policy, the disfellowshipping policy, the break up of families, the level of control over our lives, the judgementalism, the rules etc etc etc
Ministerial servant for about 12 years. In for 28 years. Faded on and off over the years. Last in a kh 2 years ago. Lying low just now as can't officially leave because of their disassociation policy. Blood is thicker than water I'm afraid.
Watchtower is a very clever manipulative captive high control group. I wish the Internet was around in 80's and 90's, as would definitely prevented me from getting involved in this bs high control publishing corporation 😔
