The religion is all about inciting guilt, pummeling the body to do more. It doesn't matter how much you do, you can do more. You are unworthy of breathing. There is no grace in the religion. You are a "good for nothing slave" and should have done what you have, and even more, you "slackers".
You will never be able to prove to Jah that you are worthy of everlasting life, but you need to earn it, just disregard what the apostle Paul said. Even after 1000 years of purity, you are still an obvious secret sinner and need to be tested. But even after you are tested, you will never be a son of God. You are human. You should be thankful to clean the toilets at the kingdom hall and mow the grass and shut your mouth. How dare you use your mind to supposedly come up with a "better" way to present the message of guilt and lack of worthiness. You just don't get it. No one should ever feel that they have accomplished anything good, even if they have, everyone has missed the mark and is unworthy. Just take your anti-depressant medicines but don't ever talk to someone worldly that could help you.
Oh, and you were late to one meeting in 7 years of perfect meeting attendance.