...don't worry.If you can get out of it,try to.If not, time will fly like crazy! Thanks so much for the pm...
MsGrowingGirl20
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feeling guilty
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i have come a long way during this last year.
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This was my 'Sign'
by MsGrowingGirl20 inin my previous post i mentioned that i'm staying in the org because i think i got a sign from god...some of you asked a lot of questions about my sign and even shared the society's view on asking for signs which i didn't know.. i didn't disclose exactly what the sign was.. some of you asked me what it was and even stated that i know that you all would pick apart and prove that my sign was just a frivolous excuse to hold on to the org.. maybe you were right.. so i've decided to tell you all exactly what it was---no embellishments or exaggerations.
i would love to hear your opinions since i'm still in a terrible mess.sometimes i'm 100% this is not the truth then other times i'm 60%....i feel if god was giving me a sign i'd be 100% this is the truth you know?.
so i woke up that morning and organized to go meeting.
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In my previous post i mentioned that i'm staying in the org because i think i got a sign from God...Some of you asked a lot of questions about my sign and even shared the society's view on asking for signs which i didn't know.
I didn't disclose exactly what the sign was.
Some of you asked me what it was and even stated that i know that you all would pick apart and prove that my sign was just a frivolous excuse to hold on to the org.
Maybe you were right.
So i've decided to tell you all exactly what it was---no embellishments or exaggerations. I would love to hear your opinions since i'm still in a terrible mess.Sometimes i'm 100% this is not the truth then other times i'm 60%....i feel if God was giving me a sign i'd be 100% this is the truth you know?
So i woke up that morning and organized to go meeting. The saturday night before i was having a casual conversarion with a MS in my cong and one thing he said stuck in my head,"So if you can't get all the answers to your questions, you will NEVER preach again?" We were talking and i was telling him why i had really slowed down on my field service.
That question continued to play over and over in my head.Was that what God deserved? But was i really preaching what God wanted me to preach? What if i make the wrong decision and leave and my 12 year old cousin misses out on learning about God because of me? (i'm basically the only in my house who practices a religion and he lives with me) What if i bring him up in this religion and its false and he hates me for it when he grows up? What am i doing? Am i really serving God?
So when i woke up that morning to go meeting,i was in a mess.I woke up my cousin and we got ready to leave.Now my cousin ALWAYS dresses before i do but this morning he's taking extra long.i'm in the bathroom praying and asking God to give me a sign.ANYTHING! I really am not sure exactly what i specified or if i just wanted anything but earlier in the week one of my friends told me about the fleece test.I prayed for something. Preferrably that morning... The talk was supposed to be on 'God's Happy people' or something like that.We arrived 15 minutes late and as i walked into the Hall the first word i heard was 'doubts'. The brother who was supposed to give the talk on 'Happy People' couldn't make it and we had a substitute speaker doing a substitute talk on a diff subject---'doubts'.Just what i ws going through.He told us about settling doubts before we move on and doing research and that he had doubts before.
I thought that that was a signn from God that this is where i need to be.About two weeks has passed and now i'm nnot so sure.
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It took me a long time to write this...i'm staying.
by MsGrowingGirl20 init took me a long time to write this....i'm being brutally honest...i am still a reg pioneer...three sundays ago,i was praying and asking god for a sign or something because i was so confused...i told him exactly what i needed to see for me to believe.i was feeling terrible--crying and feeling sick because i was so confused.ten minutes after, i walked into the kingdom hall and to my surprise--my prayer was answered!
i soooo wasn't expecting it, even though i prayed.
so this is where almighty god wants me to be,ii've reasoned.
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Thank you all for all your replies. I really do appreciate it.
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It took me a long time to write this...i'm staying.
by MsGrowingGirl20 init took me a long time to write this....i'm being brutally honest...i am still a reg pioneer...three sundays ago,i was praying and asking god for a sign or something because i was so confused...i told him exactly what i needed to see for me to believe.i was feeling terrible--crying and feeling sick because i was so confused.ten minutes after, i walked into the kingdom hall and to my surprise--my prayer was answered!
i soooo wasn't expecting it, even though i prayed.
so this is where almighty god wants me to be,ii've reasoned.
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it took me a long time to write this....i'm being brutally honest...i am still a reg pioneer...Three sundays ago,i was praying and asking God for a sign or something because i was so confused...i told him exactly what i needed to see for me to believe.I was feeling terrible--crying and feeling sick because i was so confused.Ten minutes after, i walked into the kingdom hall and to my surprise--my prayer was answered! i soooo wasn't expecting it, even though i prayed. So this is where Almighty God wants me to be,ii've reasoned. Everything is NOT perfect and we need to worship with our power of reason. But it's OBVIOUS that Jehovah is blessing the preaching work...the bible makes it clear that there will be a faithful slave in the time of the end to give food and that we need to worship with other believers----we have examined other religions---they are not doing these things! Jw's are the best of the rest....it's not perfect but when God has to reward those who preached and did good,i'm sure jw's wont be left out...the question that keeps on playing over in my mind is---if we never get answers to our questions (most likely we wont) and if it is evident that there are some wrongs in the jw's (we all know that there are)----will YOU never preach about Jehovah again? Is that what he deserves? the jw's are the best of the rest...Jah rewards good works---Most of us who say that our eyes are being opened go on to pursue our own desires...they maybe aren't as wrong as the jw's portray it but are you giving God your best? If armageddon was to come now---who would get away safe : you or the jw that's making an effort to tell persons about God?
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Hear ye!hear ye!!!!Take notice
by mouthy intomorrow the 22nd i will be 85 years old .
good wishes only please,remember if you say something nasty i will cry.
and my mum told me it is a sin to cry on your birthday .
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happy belated birthday aunty mouthy!!
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MsGrowingGirl20 is no longer one of......
by MsGrowingGirl20 ini am no longer one of jehovah's witnesses(well mentally that is)---however i am a christian...i recently started reading different translations from www.biblegateway.com...jesus is so different to how the jw's teach....and god...i mean, i still am learning and confused about certain things but i am in love with them.... it's obvious that the jw's are not an organization of god.i don't think god is working through an organization but through individuals...however i am going to speak to an elder tomorrow about my issues---all of them---and i'm going to tell him everything--what i've been reading,where i got it from---everything!!
i'm not hiding anything!
i have done no wrong....i just want to be a true christian and if they disfellowship me for seeking answers then this is not where i need to be.
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i can't thank you all enough---EVERYONE----for your kind words and advice...i really appreciate it all...
Please know that i am aware of what may be the consequences but what keeps pushing me on is even though the jw's may disfellowship me,i will not be disfellowshipped or cut off in the eyes of the most High God.
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MsGrowingGirl20 is no longer one of......
by MsGrowingGirl20 ini am no longer one of jehovah's witnesses(well mentally that is)---however i am a christian...i recently started reading different translations from www.biblegateway.com...jesus is so different to how the jw's teach....and god...i mean, i still am learning and confused about certain things but i am in love with them.... it's obvious that the jw's are not an organization of god.i don't think god is working through an organization but through individuals...however i am going to speak to an elder tomorrow about my issues---all of them---and i'm going to tell him everything--what i've been reading,where i got it from---everything!!
i'm not hiding anything!
i have done no wrong....i just want to be a true christian and if they disfellowship me for seeking answers then this is not where i need to be.
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baltar447 well then,i'm out.
As simple as that.
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MsGrowingGirl20 is no longer one of......
by MsGrowingGirl20 ini am no longer one of jehovah's witnesses(well mentally that is)---however i am a christian...i recently started reading different translations from www.biblegateway.com...jesus is so different to how the jw's teach....and god...i mean, i still am learning and confused about certain things but i am in love with them.... it's obvious that the jw's are not an organization of god.i don't think god is working through an organization but through individuals...however i am going to speak to an elder tomorrow about my issues---all of them---and i'm going to tell him everything--what i've been reading,where i got it from---everything!!
i'm not hiding anything!
i have done no wrong....i just want to be a true christian and if they disfellowship me for seeking answers then this is not where i need to be.
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well for me ,i dont want to change any thing....i simply want answers...if i cant get that then....whatever....i don't care to stay if it's all lies....if they --THE ELDERS-cant make sense of this religion then it makes no sense continuing
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MsGrowingGirl20 is no longer one of......
by MsGrowingGirl20 ini am no longer one of jehovah's witnesses(well mentally that is)---however i am a christian...i recently started reading different translations from www.biblegateway.com...jesus is so different to how the jw's teach....and god...i mean, i still am learning and confused about certain things but i am in love with them.... it's obvious that the jw's are not an organization of god.i don't think god is working through an organization but through individuals...however i am going to speak to an elder tomorrow about my issues---all of them---and i'm going to tell him everything--what i've been reading,where i got it from---everything!!
i'm not hiding anything!
i have done no wrong....i just want to be a true christian and if they disfellowship me for seeking answers then this is not where i need to be.
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however i do have close friends...i'm nervous abt that but some have already started treating me differently because i don't comment and go on service as per usual...hmmmm..