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<P>Alright, I'm gonna tell the truth. My mom is a JW, and i attend the meetings. I have a study also. </P> <P> ;</P> <P>But, I'm also one of those kids who lives the so-called "Double life" I'm not being phony really, if someone ever asked me i would tell the truth. My thing is, I feel it isn't "me" you know. I'm not going to put it down; some of the stuff they say makes alot of sense. Most of my friends who attend church asked me more about bible stuff than they ask their pastors.</P> <P> ;</P> <P>Well, I was having my study and my conductor was talking about Armegeddeon. The way he described it scared the sh*ssshh out of me. He didn't do it on purpose, he was just telling me because i asked him for "his" opinion. The bible says about the earth and heaven will shake, so of course that means great earthquakes. Plagues, fire, birds, and so on. "Jehovah's awesome power" will bring down all the wicked. And it scared me because i know I will be destroyed also. After he left, for my own conscious, i took out every watchtower and Awake my mother gave me that i just threw in my "bin"</P> <P>I started thinking. I mean, it isn't like what they say doesn't make sense. I mean, after 1914 alot of craziness happend that still doesn't make sense to us today. Earthquakes, the Spanish Flu , famine, and the wars. We are in a war now. I thought my generation wouldn't have to go threw that and it is....weird.</P> <P>But I started to think, if I changed everything to this faith to make myself right would it matter. jehovah is the "reader of hearts" as they say, so even if i did, all the doubt and confusion would still prolly get me killed.</P> <P>My friends, one catholic, other baptist, say the same thing. They don't want to anger god, but they don't feel worthy, or feel that they can't do it. Like giving your all to god will change you...which is the definition of a cult. So doens't that make ALL religions a cult in that perspective?</P> <P>Anyways, I'm just saying, the Jws is cool. There are some foul ones..yes, there are. And of course the society is gonna be messed up, right because its run by imperfect humans. But if thats so, won't Jehovah, in his appointed time fix it.</P> <P>My friend said that her church is messed up, that the pastors wife was cheating with someone and it has their whole congregation in a funk. And that god will fix it when the time comes. All religions have something like that, right?</P> <P>I mean, if Armegedeon came, and it is possible. let's not lie. I mean, if the twin Towers can come down, which NOONE-except the gov't- thought can come down. Then can't the whole world?</P> <P>If it happend, I'll prolly bang on the Kingdom hall screaming "let me in!!!! I'm sorry!!!" because it's in me. If you were raised in "the truht" you know sometimes even though you are not there, it pops up. When something on t.v pops up with the occult, it'll pop up and say "demonic! change the channel!" Stuff like that. ;I was raised that way, so it is in me like my ABC's.</P> <P>Everytime I sin, i always think of jehovah. When i was young, when I was talking about religion, i was ashamed becasue i knew I would get teased. but sometimes i would blurt out "Jeho-" and stopped my self by say "Jeh-auhsus..."LOL. it matched because i stutter and nobody ever gave me a second look.</P> <P>So, I guess if the world ever came down, I would just have to go to the liqour store and go out not knowing who the hell I am....</P> <P> ;</P> <P>Anybody feel the sameway?</P> <P> ;</P>
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Armegeddeon, Hell...Scared like crap

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