Wow...Baby steps, allowing myself to be vulnerable and let you all know how I'm feeling, really paid off for me! You really 'get it' here on this forum.
@LongHairGal Thank you, It feels good to know that you, like me, simply run out of patience. Sometimes that is just for the best. (Long suffering had its work complete LOL!) The first thing to go when I woke up was the contributions. Done. Yes, they need the money from working people...while they shit on me too for working! Go figure. Yep...I'll continue to ignore their calls and texts.
@wanton, I too would rather receive a fake wave on zoom, than an actual meeting with the fake friends (but NO Zoom for me! Yay!!!)...my last year of meeting attendance was occupying a seat and getting the hell outta there. The pain of going with no heart, actually helped me to wake up. Thanks for your understanding words.
@caves, wow...you get the guilt, embarrassment, shame!! These emotions aren't foreign to humans...but only a former JW could understand WHY in this situation. I too secretly judge myself. Thanks for your words, I feel like if you can move past this...I can too. If one good thing came out of my waking up, it's that I refuse to Judge...anyone. (I'll need to include myself). For me...nostalgia not such a big player because anything good I look back on, I realize today I could embrace the same good...just SANS JW!, remove the religion...I'd be happy. When you mentioned your not speaking to them for your peace...and THEIR PROTECTION!!YES!!! Lol!!!
@Pete Zahut-Im so sorry about your Father and his wife dying due to the barbaric ever changing non biblical blood policy! This eye opening/ awakening makes me angry. I've read a lot of your insightful posts...now I know why you have such an acute understanding. With regards to your brother...you took the bull by the horns and got ahead of the potential shunning..this is exactly what I wish I could do if I had the strength! WOW...I love how you handled this! Kudos to you!!! Right now, I'm just holding my own...but your response helps me see why what I'm doing is okay...its actually proactive. Thank you.
@Finkelstein hahaha...yeah, they are trying to use their same ole same ole cultish fear mongering tactics.. I'd call them out for their utter foolishness, but my 'spiritual bent' right now...is unclear, let's just say my 'religion' is a choice of 'indifference'. I just have nothing left. And I don't want to be included on their field circus report as a return visit, (nor give them the 'field day' they would have talking about me). #mindcontrol
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Reversed Shunning
by Difido ini dont post really.
probably because i'm full of discord and shame about this religion.
i'm embarrassed, but working thru it.
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Reversed Shunning
by Difido ini dont post really.
probably because i'm full of discord and shame about this religion.
i'm embarrassed, but working thru it.
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I dont post really. Probably because I'm full of discord and shame about this religion. I'm embarrassed, but working thru it. Anyway, I'm trying to move forward. (I was in for nearly 30 yrs)
The so called 'friends' who treated me like shit because they disliked my husband so much (he being a perpetual whining victim, [he was indeed victimized]- but hasn't the tools or desire to do anything about it except honor his vow and never change-but I digress) well these people, now that I've faded, (they must need to count some service time-🙄CV19) are suddenly constantly 'reaching out' to my poor-ass soul (sorry, I love swearing lol!!!) So, this is me-I'm shunning ALL those love bombers. I want NOTHING to do with any of them. Nothing. I dont respond. When asked if I ever need to talk, at first I would just say No thanks, I'm good. (I would think, thank goodness our thoughts can be kept private- no marquis on my forehead advertising my thought crimes.) Nope, I don't want to 'talk' about my thoughts. But now, I dont even respond. Probably if I say "Thanks" I'll be counted as an RV! LOL!!
I took a huge step posting this...just looking for some input. I feel a twinge of guilt but they are not my friends and dont love me.
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LDS posts their secret Handbook, will GB get some light?
by Difido inapparently there are new major lds changes.
(its a long youtube video, but the link is below).
they updated and posted an online copy of their secret handbook (unless they have another one stashed lol).
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Apparently there are new major LDS changes. (Its a long youtube video, but the link is below). They updated and posted an online copy of their secret handbook (unless they have another one stashed lol). They defined apostasy and what constitutes the formation of a disciplinary council (jdub translation-judicial committee). Since the WT's redesigned website -JW dot org -and LDS website look alot alike, I wonder if GB will post the shepherding book to keep up with appearances of being transparent.
Spoiler alert- the LDS must have consulted with some JW attorneys, they expunged from their lexicon the words 'disfellowshipped' and 'excommunicated' to 'withdrawal of church membership' /'formal membership restrictions' .
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Unwritten, congregational 'rules'
by Thetruthhurts inwhat were some of yours?
the big one in our hall was no frontal hugs!
these were generally thought of as inappropriate, only side hugs should be given between sisters and brothers.
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One time I suggested in field circus that me and an elderly sister call on a specific house because there were no stairs and she was quite feeble. I was quickly reminded not to be 'taking the lead'. Omg. Stupid narcissists.
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Sharing an original song I wrote about what it's like to leave JW.
by Thetruthhurts inhttps://www.bandlab.com/posts/088a46c6-9951-ea11-a94c-0003ff121727.
this song is very personal to me but i wanted to share it here for anyone that might enjoy it!
it's about being disfellowshipped and what it's like to leave this religion and is also the only song i've ever recorded.
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You have the voice of an angel! Can you post the Lyrics so we can follow along? I love the melody, melancholy, hopeful, resolute!