I always felt uncomfortable talking to strangers and disliked the D2D work.
It was only when I was experiencing a very difficult time in my personal life that I decided to aux pioneer for 3 months running to express my thanks to God for helping me through this period (as I saw it at the time).
I had 2 young children, a part time job to maintain and was going through a separation, but felt it was the right thing to do , to put God first rather than focus on my own problems.
A couple of months later, I applied to aux pioneer again but my application was declined by the elders because I had decided to finally divorce my serial adulterous husband. I was bewildered and heart broken because the elders were sending out the message to the congregation that I was "not in good standing" with God when I had done nothing wrong.
Even though they refused to officially recognise me as an aux pioneer and my name was not read out amongst the list of other pioneers, I determined to complete the hours because I had made a promise to God.
Even though the elders' harsh attitude cut me to the core when I was at my most vulnerable, I see now that they did me a favour. It opened my eyes to see they were nothing but wolves in sheep's clothing and it was this that started my exit from the religion.
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