i came upon this quote relating to the results of hatred: .
"i imagine one of the reasons people cling to their hates so stubbornly is because they sense, once hate is gone, they will be forced to deal with pain.
has your hatred of the organization been an effort to avoid dealing with your pain?
There are days when I become depressed.
The cause is probably tiredness or the pressures of life, however I have noticed that I tend to blame it on my decades of cult experience.
No matter how much I try to get things straight in my mind I find the hatred increasing and I have to watch what I say around my wife. The best therapy is some sort of hard labour on my little property.
Just an example of how I am affected. The next day I will probably be fine.
I am not going this year. I have told a few that if I do go I will partake.
Last year the wine was cloudy and looked “off” or whatever.
I am beginning to wonder if anyone really cares or perhaps they are just going through the motions.
I have noticed that in the last few years there is a distinct lack of “zeal” for any activity, perhaps because we sold the kh 9 years ago and now there is no new one and no money either. Sad isn’t it I don’t think.
ok, so you all looked here??.
this thread is prompted by losch's stupid 'decrees' in the march 2018 broadcast, where he denounced online information that may be 'negative' about the organization.. it strikes me that the gb are so dumb!
the moment someone says "dont look at something", human curiousity will make most people look.
Thanks stuckie for your enthusiasm and being a key member of this forum.
i have been clear now for 22 years but i am still obsessed.
after going on and on about my experiences to friends and family i have finally realised that no one is interested.. they have won.
no one cares about my ptsd or my suicide attempts or my alcohosm.. i have no one to talk to about this but i really need to get the infection out of my system because it is killing me..
We all have periods in our life when we need professional help.
check for helpline phone numbers who will redirect you if they feel it is appropriate.
there is no need for anyone in this day and age to feel that they have to tough it out or whatever.
Get some help which means advice and support in coping with a difficult situation.
i missed my first memorial last year in 60 years.
it always amazed me on this special night that the jw's forget how to park their cars in the parking lot.
i would pull in with my wife and there are 5 brothers giving directions on where and how to park my car.
Loved the video. Right on the mark.
For many decades I used to think I was the only person in existence who saw how ridiculous the whole ceremony was.
I met a bro and sis at the Sunday flea market this morning, really nice people who want me to attend the memorial this year. I calmly explained that I feel we are all Christ’s Brothers and that I would have to partake and it would cause comment.
Bro said that I should partake if I felt that I should. Sis did everything except embrace me to encourage me to come.
They are genuinely nice people but I realise that they are are totally deluded. This causes so much emotional pain all around.
I have come to really loath the organisation but I still realise that I have to continue with my softly softly approach in order to help people.
It isn’t easy being one of exjws.
i thought that this little gem deserved a thread of it's own.. 4. why is it important for us to be present at the memorial if at all possible?.
4 reflect on the importance of attending the memorial.
remember, congregation meetings are part of our worship.
My wife asked me if I was going and I calmly told her that as we are all Christ's brothers I would have to partake and this might be embarrassing for her and those who know me which is most of the cong. She is becoming curious now as to where I get all my info. I told her that most comes from the inconsistencies and changes in the watchtower such as overlapping generations with no scriptural backup. There is still hope.
we were talking with a friend who is in a different area and they mentioned that their present kingdom hall building used to be a church before the brothers bought it cheaply and renovated it.
"of course," john then said, "it'll be dedicated to jehovah after all the work is done so even if everyone in the community still call it the old church, we'll know it is jehovah’s place of worship.
hadn't consciously thought about it until now, but isn't it hypocrisy to (re)dedicate a church and it becomes ok for the witnesses to use.
Where I live in Aus it was never a big deal. In the 70s when we were looking to build a kh, an elder said to me that a local old church would do if the price was right. His comment was that “we would have to get the spooks out of it”.
We sold our kh in town where I live near now to the Salvation Army some 8 or 9 years ago. You can guess who now has the money and the large block of land we bought as a replacement site. Also my wife informed me recently that they are not building the new hall that was “approved” 12 months ago. No one who knows the full story is happy about it. She is even starting to ask me questions about where I get my info from. I know more about what is going on than she does.
Sorry......a bit off topic there.
greetings, techies:.
i'm teaching a class right now and my students' desktop computer is showing microsoft word upside down.
we share documents between our two computers but cannot because of this crazy turn of events.. any ideas?.
Switch to Apple computers.
who among us has known a jw who has committed suicide.
i believe this as a separate subject has not been covered..
Years ago....two.
The first one wiped himself out on his motor cycle after his family split up and left “the truth”.
The second was a sister in the cong who had problems which “the truth” couldn’t help. I felt sorry for her. The PO went around the hall telling us not to talk about it. He eventually ate himself to death, so I will amend my first sentence.
Years ago......three
i`m sure many of you old timers would remember her she was in her nineties when she recently passed away .. she co-starred with fred astaire in bandwagon and also appeared in a couple of episodes of the mary tyler moore show.. and won numerous awards in the entertainment industry .
she was 97 when she passed away..
Yes......I remember. The triplets number from the band wagon is one of my favourite musical pieces. The whole film was great. Sad to hear of her passing.
