Hello all! I would hope that most of you would agree that a major reward for Jehovah's Witnesses comes from positive experiences. And who could blame them since they have such a negative message with 99.9% rejection. Who remembers the fear you felt of being a "bad witness?" So I have two stories that I think prove how insane this religion is. I cant actually say with certainty that either of these things happened, but I'll share the facts which are true and the assumptions I made.
The first is the belief that I was either drugged or had my drink spiked and then molested by a brother from the congregation. He is a registered sex offender, he was grooming me with gifts and surprise visits, and when we went fishing alone he was always trying to look cool. Like this one time when he was driving 89 miles an hour down a 55mph highway and he was telling me that he would go faster if he didn't have a governor. He had a governor probably because it was a condition of his probation. He lost 3 of his fingers in a car accident where he was recklessly driving, so he obviously has impulse problems. So I cant say for certain that it happened, but it would explain a confusion I started feeling around that time of age. I became addicted to being alone and looking at porn for hours. I also was playing so many mind games with people.
The second story happened in 2017. I had come out as an atheist to my wife in the Fall of 2016. I didn't go to the elders but I did quit going to meetings. Then my wife got pregnant and my whole perspective changed about life. I prayed to God and a week later I felt an answer to the prayer and I believed again, just not in the old man in the sky God. Which is what JW's worship because they're still operating off the fact that Adam and Eve sinned against God in Paradise and thats why were fucked. When in reality, Adam and Eve were ape like creatures who were "white trash" and "God" was another ape like figure they revered. And to this day, the white trash still believe they're in the right. Thats what I'm saying about the dubs. They're white trash. They don't realize how meaningless they truly are, but they continue to hold an ego that they are especially created and better than their environment.
I go on that rant because I think that my return and testimony of turning back to God after becoming an Atheist was a gold mine for them. JWs HATE Atheism because its their inner truth. Because they are nothing, and they will become nothing. I'm pretty sure that people started talking about what my true intentions were. My wife told me people were talking to me but she wouldn't name anyone and a couple elders said the same thing but wouldn't name anyone. It started feeling like they were playing mind games. Like Jedi mind tricks where they lead your thought along a path because they want to see how you'll respond to it.
Its really important for me to get to the bottom of this because it would be an excellent illustration of idolism. Its not just the JW's. All the big corporations keep hiding behind legal jargon that protects them from liability. So I'm sick of hearing people say that it was weed that caused me to have a mental breakdown. I believe it was the trauma from a child mixed in with the indoctrination, and then capped off by them scheming behind my back because they were concerned about me being seen giving an interview that I didn't want to give anyway.