Greetings Freeof1914,
Our situations are similar in so many ways. About a year and a half ago I just could not stand for any more of the nonsense. My son was DF for about a year and I had been closely monitoring his status, talking with him regularly, watching him become more distant and depressed, to where I actually feared for his life. I reached out to him and we came to the same views as to the unscriptural, pharisaical, criminal dealings that comprise being in the Watchtower.
In doing this I had to sacrifice the love of my life, my dear wife. She chose to be a faithful JW. In the climate of last year's witchhunt mentality, unquestioning obedience to god's earthly organization, the cry against "mentally diseased apostates", she chose to abandon our family and our marriage of almost 30 years.
The best thing to come out of this so far is that I am growing closer to my son as never before, without the dysfunctional influence of the borg. But I so miss my wife, and daily I second guess about what I could have done different, or what magical line of reasoning I could have said to help her to see the malevalence that is this evil cult. I truly hate these bastards that have done so much damage to people's lives and their families.
It is not easy I know, because after seeing clearly the lies and clear deceptions, you know that you would have to give up a piece of yourself, the part which makes you a truly moral person to go back and live a lie for the sake of your own well being.
Hang in there, and take each day as it comes. Know that others have been where you are at, and there is a lot of support to be found on this forum.
neverscreamagain