Listen.
Your last sentence sent shivers down my spine Tattoogrl.
"Its all too weird...all that info and NOT FEELING ANY CONNECTION TO GOD"
I don't think that you realise, but that is the whole point of Christianity. You've probably not heard this before but its a well known saying amongst Christians, (but I'm willing to bet most JWs have never heard this before either) "Christianity is not a Religion, it is a RELATIONSHIP.
Tattoo,it doesn't matter what you learn or understand. It's connecting with God that is important. Check John 17 v 3 in any transalation but NWT (JW Bible). Its not "taking in knowledge" or info, which is what you have been doing, but coming to KNOW God that matters.
If you are wanting to feel a connection with God and PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE be assured that that is the way to go, then approach some other Christian Church and tell them what you are doing and what you are searching for. They will help you. At the very least do this at the same time that you are studying with the JWs,you will be able to see who leads you to connect with God.
Tattoo, think about this.
I am away for three days now till Thursday. I'll look you up when I get back. Where are you by the way?
In the meantime any Christian Ex-JW who realises the significance of what Tattoo has said in her post, could you follow up what I'm trying to say.
Cheers. C U in a few days
Pubsinger.