QC:
Yes, I'm attatched by family. Especially my beloved wife. She's in, and I mean "in." Yet she also has loyalty for me and our marriage. I think she senses the damage that would be caused if she divulged some of our private talk to the elders.
It's interesting to see her reaction when I bring up something that she senses is in conflict with WT dogma (Such as this) There is an immediate reaction in her demeanor as if she senses an attack on her beliefs. I assure her that it was just an interesting point I found. And she goes back to normal, like nothing happened. And she never asks about the new point. It's like, 'if the WT didn't see it as noteworthy, then it's not.'
So I've learned to be careful. She's a wonderful woman, a wonderful human. I wouldn't trade her for anything. But some of her thought processes have been manipulated by the WT (just as mine were - but I'm slowly reversing that).
But that is how I see with most witnesses that I know. Their first reaction to anything said is an insecure defensive reaction. The very sight of a non-WT tract or book produces a reaction like they were trying to avoid touching poison ivy. Their faith is so fragile that any out-of-the-way comment threatens them. They've been trained to think there is only the WT way and Satan's way, with nothing in between. And yet they don't always have the means to put up a good argument for what they believe in. Nor do they have the security in their own beliefs to allow someone different to have his. And the WT wants it way. That way 8 glorified religious dictators can feel secure in their beliefs, even if it is at the cost of 8 million pawns.
Here is something from the book study the other night that illustrates how my thinking and the WT's have diverged: The conductor pointed to the box "Questions For Meditation," and asked 'Which comes first, research or meditation?' His answer was "research, always." The unspoken reason was that you looked up what you were looking for - always in WT publications, always accepting what they say - this is "research." And then you "meditate" so as to accept and understand what you found.
So it goes.
Take Care