LoisLane:
When I partook I was in a front row facing forward. I am not sure if you are familiar with "the dance." But the procedure is for the speaker to serve the servers then one of the servers serves the speaker. It is incredibly ritualistic. I always had a problem with it, but went along anyways.
At any rate, the elders have NEVER spoken to me about this. They have never brought the topic up. And I never said anything to them about it. It is the proverbial elephant in the room.
Curiously, one sister congratulated me afterwards. Almost like I had gotten a promotion of sorts?!?! No one else said anything to me about it.
Later that year another sister asked me at the DC 'whats it feel like?' But that is about it. I told her she was asking the wrong question. I simply did what I was told to do.
Sometimes I think some bring up the topic of living on earth just to see if I might comment in such a way as to show a discrepancy in my beliefs. (The discrepancy would be wanting to live on earth but partaking - which, by the Society's reckoning means one should be hoping to go to heaven.)
Take Care (Oh yea, I'm closer to the Atlantic than the Pacific.)