Hi D
Don't give up, trying. My mother was a JW like me for more than 16 years, now she's out after DA herself last spring.
I was still going to the meetings in my congregation (for inlaw family reasons) under duress for many months knowing after doing months of research that it was not the truth. My wife knew just how I felt at having to put on a front every time I visited the KH. It got to the point where I had to see the doctor, who put me on anti-depressants.
Anyway each year in times passed my mother always came to stay at our home over Christmas, the rest of my fleshly family always had a get together at that time of year. Last Christmas, she came over as usual, like you the person I hated to upset the most was my mum, with apostate thoughts. I did not want her to have her whole social structure ripped away from her if she did accept what I had come now to believe.
To cut a long story short, "short" being the operative word because I had drank a few (isn't it strainge how JW's have a custom of getting booze into the house at Christmas time, and say it because of having time off work!) >>>anyway I can not remember how I got around to saying I did not believe JW to have the true religion anymore, but some how I found the words to tell her how I felt.
Instead of falling to bits at what I had to say, she said she had been feeling the same way too, WHAT A SUPRISE, and wondered why I had not been all witnessy in my talkin as I normaly was, she said this explains it.
Don't worry too much God has away of helping things turn out OK in the end.
Drop me an email, I see you are in the UK like me, I'd be happy to give you a call.
Qwerty
Edited by - qwerty on 3 December 2002 4:50:9
