Brighton, in your post you said that leaving the religion with a letter is playing by their rules, and how successful your fade was.
Yet, in the same post you say you:
1. Stull hang out with them
2. Live in a grey area
Somehow you think you are a good reminder to them that everyone who leaves is not dangerous when you are staying you have not left and are still a JW.
You made one post on this site and it was about finding a way to sneak around and receive lifesaving medical treatment if needed without the group you supposedly left finding out...
Please tell me who has established the rules you are living by