I don't know any of you, but everyone here has the freedom to discuss the dogma now. I don't think any here would not toe the line at rhe book study. You would be counseled and reproved for not being a company man; therefore, your JWD personality would be hidden until your decission to break free, then you may be open and become a "personallity."
I would question things now. I did not then even though flashes of brilliance and "gee that doesn't sound right." passed through my cultish brain.