I’ve noticed many people posting on this site seem to have
completely given up on religion/spirituality.
But some have attended services at another religion, or just follow their own heart regarding what to believe.
My question is how does anyone deal after leaving with all
of the witness crap that we believed about Babylon the Great, the great Harlot,
spiritual prostitute, etc., etc.
I’m finding out that I seem to have built myself a pretty
solid wall regarding religion.
Some people can just chuck all beliefs into one basket
saying that they are all basically garbage,,, and that is OK, no problem I respect
that.
But for myself there is a certain part of my personality
that needs a spiritual belief not like the witnesses in any way, but something
to meditate on, and contemplate.
Being a witness taught me how bad it is to actually think of
God in any other way besides what the jw’s believe. And now when I attend any
other service, the dark jw side seems to pop out and seriously makes me believe
that everything I see/do/say is wrong. And it is like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde
it just come out. It’s really quite a
big drag that keeps me from moving forward in a positive way. I’m not looking
to become a self-righteous religious person like before with my jw life, but
just looking for something to lean on. Before becoming a witness ( for 15 years
before) my parents were religious, but not self-righteous as the jw’s made them
out to be later.
Has anyone else dealt with this type of backhanded residual
effect after leaving the witnesses?