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New girl in town here for support
by joyfulfader inhi everyone here on jwn.
i admit to being a lurker for quite some time before joining and now i am ready to post and i want to introduce myself.
i am/was 3rd generation and daughter of the po (as it was termed at the time) for most of my life.
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Knowing the Real Truth about the "truth" when you're stuck inside...
by OneDayillBeFree in...sucks.
(warning: this could get lengthy but i have to vent and i could really use some advice).
i know ttatt and have known about it for almost 2 years, yet i'm still stuck inside.
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The Navy sounds like a good idea, it'll help you do better in college. My veteran classmates are very disciplined and get good grades.
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Knowing the Real Truth about the "truth" when you're stuck inside...
by OneDayillBeFree in...sucks.
(warning: this could get lengthy but i have to vent and i could really use some advice).
i know ttatt and have known about it for almost 2 years, yet i'm still stuck inside.
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Your story is very similar to mine and you even beat me to starting a thread like yours. I'm going to put in bold everything we have in common from your post. BTW, I'm in no way trying to hijack your thread; I just wanted to point out that you're not alone, and unfortunately not the last one until this cult implodes. If it makes you feel better, I know at least two others here besides me who are in a similar situation.
I know TTATT . . . yet I'm still stuck inside.
I don't regret learning the real truth about this twisted religion . . . .
. . . I don't even have my own vehicle, although one has been provided for me, but it is not something I can call my own, because it would be immediately taken if I decided to leave rendering me basically homeless.
I'm not on my own yet . . . I've been saving and working hard to get independent . . . .
Living this way isn’t living at all. I'm lying to myself and to others, it's a horrible way to live. The organization makes me feel as if I'm the devil, or really mentally diseased. They make me feel like shit. But the truth is the complete opposite. I don't live what the org calls a double life. I mean I would love to but I simply can't because I don't even have any outside (real) friends to do anything with, nor do I have any JW friends for that matter. I don’t do drugs, drink, smoke, or party. I am not a bad person, so why is there so much damn pain and sadness? I feel like just an empty, worthless waste of life.
I figured there has to be an end to this, and there will be but I don't know when or how.
I know for a fact that this is how it would go because my parents would in no way try to help me out at all, they barely do now. And my father (in my case my stepdad) is an elder who's in love with his position of power, authority and with the religion, so much that he would kick me out just to keep it (he would probably use Joshua 24:15).
You should really consider college. What are your interests? What would you like to major in? If your parents don't do well financially you have a high chance of getting a full-tuition scholarship. If you know your dream career pays well and that you will pass all your classes, consider loans. You don't have to repay them until 6 months after graduation or until you get a job, whichever comes first). Can you go to college out of town? What state do you live in? Are you able to disclose that info here? My calls are monitored so I can't call you, but you can text me all you want. Have you considered a VoIP app if you have an ipod touch, ipad, or android device? I'm not out yet, so I have to be as discreet as possible. Unless I win the lottery or something, I'll have to keep being a hypocrite until I gradutate from college, which I'm fine with now. To make things worse, I was recently appointed MS (even though I've been lurking on apostate websites for some time now, lol) and couldn't refuse because that would raise suspicions. My elder stepdad would've found out and interrogated me for "rejecting the holy spirit". There goes my plan for fading...
I digress, King Solomon, you're a doctor?? Holy Moly!!! I don't know how you find the time to post here.
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ORGANIZATION provoked CONSEQUENCES for 1975
by Terry inwhen we commit an action we own the consequences of our act.
if we are cleaning our pistol and it discharges a bullet into our best friend's head the act is not intentional, but, the consequential death is still our act.. the effect is perpetrated by the cause.. when the watchower society's governing body perpetrates mandatory teachings there are consequences.. the effects may not be intentional but they are caused and the society must own them.. why?.
a jw who fails to keep solidarity with accepted teachings is acting single-mindedly.
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When I was in the lurking phase I asked a sister who studied in 1974 if she remembered the whole fiasco and her reaction. She said she didn't know what was going on because she was just a study. I then asked if she remembered why people were selling their homes and everything. Her reply was that over zealous brothers were the ones who started all that. I was dumbfounded at how she could forget her own past.
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Merchandising in Watchtower
by indicetj.com in.
merchandising in watchtower?.
look ilustration no 100. http://indicetj.com/pdf/estudo_2_jehovah.htm.
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just need encouraging words... elders came over and breifly stopped by to encourage me back to hall
by Butterflyleia85 inwell i was kinda cut of gaurd when i saw them.
it was the two elders from the local congregation.
they said they just wanted to come over for encouragement to come back to the meetingsm one of the elders i knew me sence i was a baby and saw my son in my arms and asked how old he was.
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He told me I have candida. That's going to get me back to the Kingdom Hall, I don't think so!
A yeast infection? Lol. I don't know what it means.
Butterflyleia85, sorry I hijacked your thread.
I think talking to someone you have known for so long will elicit a nervous response. I get shaky when I'm asking JWs questions to get them thinking.
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Jesus and the Apostles return in the 21st century......where ?
by Balaamsass inan old co-worker who trained to be a jesuit priest, is very intrigued with the ex-jw movement.
we share laughs and have some off-beat phone discussions at times on theology.
yesterday was about money, religion and "wwjd" what would jesus do if he and the apostles actually returned today.. we decided he and the apostles would probably be seated around a picnic table in a park with a laptop writing a "blog", have a facebook "fan page", and make press releases...making it entirely possible for "every eye to see him".. the pope and the governing body would denouce them as heritics.
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Sorry guys, sometimes I just want to believe. But if I can't disprove something then it must be true!
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Merchandising in Watchtower
by indicetj.com in.
merchandising in watchtower?.
look ilustration no 100. http://indicetj.com/pdf/estudo_2_jehovah.htm.
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Sorry about my reply, I only did it because I don't think indicetj.com speaks English and didn't want him/her to feel bad.
What do these pics have to do with the WTS?
I have no idea; supposedly there's hidden advertising in WT publications. Did you see the pictures?
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Sparlock
by biometrics inso we have a jw next door who went to the assembly over the w/e.
yesterday she gave 'gift' to my wife for my kids.. that's right it was the sparlock dvd.
i didn't know about the gift until i saw my kids watching it this morning.. is it safe to let my kids watch it?.
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Merchandising in Watchtower
by indicetj.com in.
merchandising in watchtower?.
look ilustration no 100. http://indicetj.com/pdf/estudo_2_jehovah.htm.
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What do you mean? Are you referring to the website, or the advertising?