Thanks for sharing Billy!
Wow, it amazes me how many of us suffered from depression and anxiety while trying to keep up with the WTBS rat race. I did not really catch on to the fact that it was contributing to my depression (I was on anti-dep meds for years after 2 depressive/suicidal episodes) until I took a “spiritual vacation” from the organization. My brain was so overloaded and I felt better when I stopped going to the meetings for a while. Then, of course I panicked and went back because I was afraid if I stayed off the “chariot” I’d die in the Big A. But I GOT SICK AGAIN! That’s when I realized what the cause was and I took that leap of faith to stop going altogether.
Three years later, no meds, brain whizzing at 100%, 25 lbs lighter and genuinely giddily happy. I see the depression in some of the faces of my JW family and a few elders who take on so much to help the “friends” and handle secular and personal lives. I know one elder who is struggling…anxiety through the roof, son is DFd, wife has MS, but is depended on so heavily as he is the go to elder in the hall I used to go to. I worry about him all the time. He is the one person I pray that wakes up so he can get some TRUE RELIEF.
P.S. I think years of writing in journals on a regular basis probably saved me from committing suicide.