Yes, for a long time, I put up with the inconsistencies because I WANTED THE PARADISE. I wanted it so badly.. and I wanted to see my dead relatives. My mother who died of cancer, my brother in law who committed suicide at the age of 23, my friends who died for various reasons, mostly car accidents and cancer. My grandparents.
It was not easy to give up the dream of a paradise with all my loved ones there. But I realized that it was a big fat lie when I researched and found that ALL the Society's predictions were fabrication to serve the "Big Publishing Machine". Wake up y'all. It isn't going to happen! Live life today. Make today count. Quit serving a lie and a pipedream. Sigh.....