Hi Individual and welcome to the board.
I am glad that you shared your feelings with us as I think this is something many of us experience after leaving the borg. Those feelings of fear were, for me, very intense. I used to avoid the news and newspapers as I couldn't stand the terror that arose in me whenever something even remotely approaching a WTS 'prophecy' was mentioned. And within me there grew an anger at the years of life and peace of mind that had been stolen from me. The horrible nightmares I had that my children would be murdered by Jehovah at Armageddon and that it would all be my fault...what an awful, awful thing to do to someone in order to control them. But I'm glad to hear that you've broken free of that mindset, as have I and life is good now.
If you haven't already, you might want to pop over to the Personal Experiences section and read some of the stories there...its a great way to get to know some of the folks who post here and also to see that you are not alone in your feelings.
Dana
"A single event can awaken within us a stranger totally unknown to us. To live is to be slowly born."
Antoine de Saint-Exupery