Everyone is so tired - even those younger with no health problems so you are doing so well to hang in there Luezette - you are probably receiving power that is beyond normal. Hugs.
This is what gets to me, this cult is constantly forcing exhausted people to do more, more, more. This is why they're so desperate for the new system. They just want a rest. if only they would see they can just stop and rest, leave the meetings for a while and get well.
Of course the cult leaders know that if they stop the indoctrination for a few weeks they will start to mentally normalise and the leaders don't want that.