@ Divergent,
Why am I still there...I ask myself all the time...but I'm not mad at God or the friends...people are people...witnesses are just a bunch of folks who need attention....not saying they are all that way, but majority are. I have met some nice folks there but, I know not to get too close to them... I like what I do...I like to study & don't mind the door to door either...Just want to let folks know, there is something bigger than themselves...I've been to churches & other places of worship, same folks, just different doctrine....I thinking of fading, but how, don't know just yet. Most of the congregation like me...& I like them...some are hard core & some are like me...they know it may not be God's channel, but like the association.
At times I feel I don't fit in...I came from a pretty stable home. Great relationship with my parents. Fortunate enough not to have any ailments...I find some witnesses to be whiners....when going out in service all they talk about is their health....which is never good....they can get an operation, & they never get better...they always say, I had an operation on blah blah blah, but I think they didn't do it right...they enjoy bad health....I really don't think many of them have the faith they preach about....everyday is gloom & doom....worldly people are this & that...They know the scriptures but don't think they believe it...There are a couple of things I mentioned to them like praying for others...& a brother & sister said we can't...well don't you know when we read the Imitate their faith book, it said right there..in black & white, Jehovah wants to pray for all. Boy, you should have seen the faces when we went over that...necks were so stiff, because they knew they gave me the wrong info.
Again, all that I've seen I should go...but I don't want to be DF'd...just fade...I ain't swallowing the kool-aide...
I pray to Jehovah if I'm not supposed to be there then do your thing...but don't make it hurt...although, there are a few I would miss...but I still have my non-jw friends...they are do or die friends...not like JW's which are fair weather friends...
Tor