Posts by sinboi

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I have enjoyed the shunning in the past. But why not now?

by sinboi in

i am prepared for shunning when i send in my da letter.

my dad was furious when he comes back from overseas and find out that i have da myself.

yes, i do regret not talking to him first before i da...i also know that my mom is crying in her room.. but they didn't chase me out of the house.

sinboi

It's all because of my dad's words : "Take care of your mom."

If he has said :"Don't make your mom angry!", I would have reacted in a different way.

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I have enjoyed the shunning in the past. But why not now?

by sinboi in

i am prepared for shunning when i send in my da letter.

my dad was furious when he comes back from overseas and find out that i have da myself.

yes, i do regret not talking to him first before i da...i also know that my mom is crying in her room.. but they didn't chase me out of the house.

sinboi

What a silly idiot I am! ...after reading the comments here and had a good nite sleep last night, I realise that the problem lies with me and my childish, unrealistic expectations..

I have expected too much and too fast. I have unrealistic expectations.

I am feeling better now. Thank you all for the good advice you have given me.

Answers to your queries :

I am 16 y.o. DA'd 3 months ago.

Deegee, if you mean immediate family, the answer is no. I am the only son in the family. All my other relatives are non-jws. They do not know I am no longer a jw and that my dad and mom are shunning me. My granny is very opposed to this religion. She loves me a lot. I cannot let her know my family is shunning me. It will cause a lot of trouble to my parents.

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I have enjoyed the shunning in the past. But why not now?

by sinboi in

i am prepared for shunning when i send in my da letter.

my dad was furious when he comes back from overseas and find out that i have da myself.

yes, i do regret not talking to him first before i da...i also know that my mom is crying in her room.. but they didn't chase me out of the house.

sinboi

I am prepared for shunning when I send in my DA letter. My dad was furious when he comes back from overseas and find out that I have DA myself. Yes, I do regret not talking to him first before I DA...I also know that my mom is crying in her room.

But they didn't chase me out of the house. My mom still cook my share. But we no longer eat together. I still got my allowance. They did not talk to me. In fact, they avoided meeting me. I too, avoided them. Soon, I enjoyed it. Nobody is controlling me anymore. I have gained my freedom!

Last saturday morning, I found a note on the table from my mom : "You are getting from bad to worse! No allowance for the weekend." I don't feel anything..no allowance for the weekend?..no problem...I can borrow from friends...

Everything changed when I received a text msg from my dad in the late evening..."I am going overseas for 3 weeks. Take care of your mom."

I was so happy when I read that...they still consider me a part of the family?

I remember my mom will have a meeting on sat's evening. I rush home, shower and waited for her to leave for the meeting. When she finally come out from her room, I said to her : "Mom, dad is overseas. Do you want me to walk you to the bus-stop?" It jolted me out of my dream to be part of the family when she shouted: "You are no longer a jw. Get lost!"

I went drinking beer, got drunk and don't know how I got back home and at what time...I checked with my friends later...they say it left at about 9:15pm. So I presumed I was back home b4 my mom...she didn't know I have been out drinking...

Monday morning...I need to go school. My allowances were on the table with a note :"Don't let me catch you smoking again!"

On the way to school, I was thinking..."She must be angry because she saw me smoke.If I am a good boy to her...."

I immediately went back home after school..She was not at home..I remember the wash basin is a little bit choked. It took me quite a while to get some hairs out that is causing the choke. By the time I got it cleared, my pants was wet and dirty and the floor too. I was cleaning up the floor when she returns...

She came into the kitchen and wanted to see what I was doing as the kitchen was wet and dirty..I said : "Mom, I have just cleared the choke!" She tested it and said to me :"I thought I have to wait for your dad to come back. Go and shower! Also put your dirty pants in the washing machine." She then clean up the floor herself.

I have been washing my own clothes after I DA. This is the first time she talk to me! No doubt the tone of voice is unfriendly but it's ok to me. I've got my reward! Later, I notice a newly ironed school pants on the table....

That started my dream of becoming a part of the family again...

Tuesday come and go...she didn't talk to me...in fact since monday's incident, I did not see her face.

Today Wednesday...I have an exam paper...it was over in 90 mins. We can go home after the exam...I'm afraid to come home...but no one is free to accompany me today...I walked aimless on the streets for quite a while...now back at home...my mom is at home in her room..I in my room...crying...does anyone care whether I am alive or dead????

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Shunned jpg Cartoon

by oppostate in

saw this on instagram tagged with #ttatt.

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sinboi

I was shunned by my family after I left the org 3 mths ago. I always thought that if I have not got baptised a year ago, I would not be shunned.

Only a few days ago did I realised this is not the case. JWs also shun their unbaptised children when they leave.

ISIS are radical muslims.

JWs are radical christians!

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What is sin?

by sinboi in

what do you consider sinful?

okay, i know many of you no longer believe that there is a god.

just bear with me a little, just assumed that there is a creator or god.

sinboi

Deegee, maybe you can sense it...I said I can simply don't f* care about it. But can I? After a game of basketball, we went to the food ctr to eat. My friend asked me what I want. I told him anything. He came back with chicken noodles soup but with a few pieces of chicken blood cubes in it. I wanted to force myself to eat the blood cubes...but I can't. I tell myself to put it in my mouth...juz bite a little...I still can't.....

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What is sin?

by sinboi in

what do you consider sinful?

okay, i know many of you no longer believe that there is a god.

just bear with me a little, just assumed that there is a creator or god.

sinboi

I know that if I am:

1) an Israelite living at that time, I would think yhwh is right.YHWH IS GREAT!

2) a pagan worshipper at that time --these people are evil... their god is a devil!

3) still a jw - what am I doing? questioning god? remember what he said "my tots are not your tots. Neither are my ways your ways". Must stop thinking...satan is casting doubts in my mind...

4) Now that I am none of the above three - very easy..DON'T F* CARE...

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What is sin?

by sinboi in

what do you consider sinful?

okay, i know many of you no longer believe that there is a god.

just bear with me a little, just assumed that there is a creator or god.

sinboi

hey, I just realised I am judging god...on what grounds do I consider what is evil and what is merciful...

A father who hates drugs will forbid his son to meet with drugs addicts. He will chase away drug addicts from his house...that yhwh is doing the same with the pagan believers. In his case, he needs to kill them..He cannot afford to let anyone influence the israelites.

As for the babies...it may not be evil to kill them. Who is going to take care of them? What if they grow up and find out that the israelites killed their parents?

Just like my country...we have capital judgement over here. I totally support the death sentence for drug traffickers and murderers. But there are many around the globe who cry against death sentence. Who is right? My government or those against the death sentence?

But when I think of killing babies..scenes of japanese soldiers snatching babies from their mom, throw it up in the air and piece it with a bayonet...EVIL!!! Scenes of ISIS decapicating unbelievers --- evil. worshippers of the devil!

I am extremely confused...dont think about it anymore...will end up in a mental hospital....

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Shocking news

by Confusedalot in

i recently posted about what would happen if my mom got sick,seeing that i'm apostate.

even today i posted on a thread about blood transfusions.. i just received a text from my brother saying that my mom is in hospital and requires a transfusion to survive....is this a coincidence?.

am i being punished by jehovah, or is the devil out to get me...i dont know anymore what to do.... things are getting too much, guess i should not have joked so much in my posts..

sinboi

I did not receive any reply when I pray at KH. I think they don't have a link to him...

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Shocking news

by Confusedalot in

i recently posted about what would happen if my mom got sick,seeing that i'm apostate.

even today i posted on a thread about blood transfusions.. i just received a text from my brother saying that my mom is in hospital and requires a transfusion to survive....is this a coincidence?.

am i being punished by jehovah, or is the devil out to get me...i dont know anymore what to do.... things are getting too much, guess i should not have joked so much in my posts..

sinboi

Am I being punished by Jehovah, or is the devil out to get me

Ha! Same thing happen to me just 3 days after I DA'd. My mom has high blood pressure. She fainted while alone at home.I was at school then. But it so happen that I needed to go back home to take something. I have to call the ambulance and luckily everything turns out fine.

The same thoughts as you. Is he punishing me? I remember praying to him to punish me and not my mother...as usual I did not receive any reply from him....

But a week later, when I think back on that matter, I realise that nope! He is not punishing me. In fact he make me go back home to help her....

So is that a coincident? Is he punishing me? Is it him who guide me back home?

My answer I choose then is the third...

Now, I choose the 1st...

And another thing! You remember I told u that he did not give me a reply after I pray 2 him? A christian ger interprete the whole incident in another way :

God is so happy that I have left the wt. When my mom fainted he make me go back home to take care of her. When I pray to him, he replied a week later by letting me realise that it was he who guided me back home....I am thinking..Maybe next time I should go to a church to pray...maybe I can get a reply sooner...I will only get a reply a week later if I pray at home....

Do you get what I am driving at? Whatever happen is just it. Whether it is good or bad is just how we choose to interpret it.

I seem to be wiser now after I read books on the law of attraction...

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What is sin?

by sinboi in

what do you consider sinful?

okay, i know many of you no longer believe that there is a god.

just bear with me a little, just assumed that there is a creator or god.

sinboi

what would god(s) look like if there were no humans?

A very good question. Man is making god in his own image . Not the other way round. To all who believe in god, he is a kind, merciful, and loving god. But what if he is not? What if he is an evil dog who wanted those not believing in him to be killed just like allah and that yhwh?No! I am not going to worship this evil dog, even if he is the real god!!!