Posts by sinboi

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Have I Drifted Too Far?

by sinboi in

i was shocked, really shocked.

what i am doing now is so acceptable to the friends around me.. my friends are all doing it.

it is so normal in the society,.

From what I see in the notification area (I could not see his whole comment as my post is removed), someone commented that I need to go to jail. If he is referring to the incident with the 14 yrs old ger, then I think it is my fault. I myself has the misconception that I have committed a crime when I wrote that post. I said I hv committed a crime but it shouldn't be a crime at all. But what I did was not a crime. I read only the last part of that law and did not read the first part.The crime is "having sex with a minor." I did have sex with that ger (a minor) and so I say I hv committed a crime. But in fact I have not. The full law states that ADULTS who have sex with a minor is a crime. But I was just 15 yrs 9 or 10 months old when that happen. I was not even 16 at that time. Both of us are minors.

But if he has read my post properly, he should have known that that incident happen a few months after I DA at 15. He should have corrected me and told me that it is not a crime. It was only after I read his comment that I need to go to jail that I asked my friend about it. He told me it is only for adults who did it.

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Have I Drifted Too Far?

by sinboi in

i was shocked, really shocked.

what i am doing now is so acceptable to the friends around me.. my friends are all doing it.

it is so normal in the society,.

sinboi

They barred me for what I have posted. This I think is due to the many complaints on my post.

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Have I Drifted Too Far?

by sinboi in

i was shocked, really shocked.

what i am doing now is so acceptable to the friends around me.. my friends are all doing it.

it is so normal in the society,.

sinboi

I was shocked, really shocked. What I am doing now is so acceptable to the friends around me.

My friends are all doing it. It is so normal in the society,

I posted my present life in reddit’s exjw site. I expected them to be pleased with how far I have drifted from that cult.

I was shocked when I was scolded by them , my post was taken down and I was barred from the community. I was in fact disfellowshipped by exjw.

When I was 13 and my dad refuses to let me join an uniform group, I have vowed to do the things they told me not to do. They could not give me a reason that I can agree on why I cannot do them.

My parents wanted me to be home as soon as school ends. I complied. But I have several hours at school everyday and they are not around. I talk, joke and played with my classmates and they accepted me in their group. This was when I was 13 and thus I have no difficulty having friends and adapting to the world after I DA. But to please my parents, I acted as a good jw at home.

After I DA at 15, my parents did not chase me out.I still pretend to be a good boy in front of them. 2 years after I DA, I have to join the army. I was no longer a jw for the past 2 years but I still feel very guilty joining the army. I asked myself: I have already been out for 2 yrs, but I have made little or no progress, how much longer must I wait to get rid of all these bullshit!

Now I have completed my 2 years in the army. I am a completed change person. When exjw knew what I was doing, even they DF me. Have I gone too far??? My parents wanted me to be no part of this world. I purposely wanted to be part of this world. I wanted to be a worldly person. Is this wrong?

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My parents did not really shun me when I left but I am now breaking their hearts…

by sinboi in

if they have shunned me and chase me out of the house when i leave the cult, i would not give a damn.

i can still feel their love and concern for me even now.. though i have moved out voluntarily when i joined the army, i am afraid that the life i am living now will break their hearts.

i am now a bartender in a bar and am cohabiting with a woman.

sinboi

Would you be more lenient with a person who was forced to do something bad than a person who chooses to do bad?

It is same with the army issue. All male citizens at 18 years of age need to join the army. Failure to do so will result in a jail sentence. My parents were duly aware of that and knows in advance I will have to join the army.

The main problem is that I have a 180 degrees change in me before and after the army. When I DA at 15, I was still somewhat POMI. This give my parents the hope that I will return one day.

But after I moved out, and under the bad influence from my army and the enticement of this world , my life have changed. I have become a full POMO.

If my parents were to find out how I am living my life, they will be shocked. They will be sad and disappointed that I have no intention of returning.

My dad should be able to take it but my mum won't. She will have her dream shattered. All because of ME!

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My parents did not really shun me when I left but I am now breaking their hearts…

by sinboi in

if they have shunned me and chase me out of the house when i leave the cult, i would not give a damn.

i can still feel their love and concern for me even now.. though i have moved out voluntarily when i joined the army, i am afraid that the life i am living now will break their hearts.

i am now a bartender in a bar and am cohabiting with a woman.

sinboi

If they have shunned me and chase me out of the house when I leave the cult, I would not give a damn. But they didn’t. I can still feel their love and concern for me even now.

Though I have moved out voluntarily when I joined the army, I am afraid that the life I am living now will break their hearts. I am now a bartender in a bar and am cohabiting with a woman. I know my parents will not approve of my life now.

I have to lie to my parents that I am a technician and am living alone.

They may have to shun me if they know how I living my life now. I would not blame them. I deserved to be shunned. I have broken their hearts.

Please offer me some advice.

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We're you regular at all the meetings?

by Hellothere in

we're you regular at the 3 meetings days watchtower hade?

i remember our was tuesday, thursdays and saturdays.

in reality it's crazy they hade so many meetings.

sinboi

For almost 16 years, I have no choice. I have to go with my parents. Needed to go even if I have a school exam the next day. Never regret that I D/Aed myself at 16.

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A new army boy missing his parents?

by sinboi in

just imagine.

boy who for 16 years have been taught to live for god’s kingdom, be no part of the world and not to kill, been called up for military service and have to put on the army uniform….. i thought i was prepared for it.

but the moment when i was given my army uniform, the truth fell on me.

sinboi

My mum , even though she don't really shun me, is feeling very bad that I am in the army. Need to let her read those scriptures you guys quoted. Hope that she won't feel bad after reading it.

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A new army boy missing his parents?

by sinboi in

just imagine.

boy who for 16 years have been taught to live for god’s kingdom, be no part of the world and not to kill, been called up for military service and have to put on the army uniform….. i thought i was prepared for it.

but the moment when i was given my army uniform, the truth fell on me.

sinboi

Shit! I just realised what I was feeding to my mind those 16 yrs I was in the cult. It was not what the bible say, it's what those men in the cult say.

I think I should have read the new testament more than 10 times from matthew to..to..to don't know what name..the book b4 revelation. (I didn't touch the bible since I left the cult.) Revelation I don't read cos I don't understand.

But those verses that you guys quoted in Luke and Acts, I don't remember reading that.

I think when I and other jws read the bible,we see only what agrees with what the wt say and unconscoiusly ignores what the bible really say.

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A new army boy missing his parents?

by sinboi in

just imagine.

boy who for 16 years have been taught to live for god’s kingdom, be no part of the world and not to kill, been called up for military service and have to put on the army uniform….. i thought i was prepared for it.

but the moment when i was given my army uniform, the truth fell on me.

sinboi

Just imagine. A 18 y.o. boy who for 16 years have been taught to live for God’s kingdom, be no part of the world and not to kill, been called up for military service and have to put on the army uniform….

I thought I was prepared for it. But the moment when I was given my army uniform, the truth fell on me. This is the exact moment for me to decide whose side I want to be. Jehovah’s or satan’s. This is not a child play thing. This is real. I will be learning to KILL!

I wanted to run away, I don’t want to make the decision there and then. But I need to….. I have to put on the army uniform.

I don’t know anybody there. Nobody understand what my mind is going through. I don’t want to talk to the others. When someone wanted to talk to me, I just told him I wanted to be alone. I was being mocked at. They say I must be missing my parents.

A few days later, I notice someone praying before taking his lunch and found out that he is from the Methodist church. YES! THAT’S IT! THAT IS THE MEDICINE I NEED!

The Bible, even if it is true, did not forbid taking up of arms. Christians from the churches are joining the army. Why should I be guilty about it? It is only that cult that forbids its members to join the army. I am no longer a member of that cult!

Ever since then, I am able to get along with the others. Another difficulty lying ahead which someone has warned me about is bayonet fighting. That will be in 2 or 3 weeks time. But he didn't warn me about putting on the uniform. Maybe it is because he decided to join the army while he was serving detention. At least he has spend sometime in a military environment. But for me, it was transiting from civilian life to military.

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Update again

by Akid48 in

i don't know if anyone remembers me on here but i'm here to do an update again.. well, i'm 15 going on 16 soon i still remember watching my first video on youtube and learning that all the jw teachings are false and everything that follows.

crazy times, i have chosen to just focus on school and just trying to be a kid well a teen now but you get the point.

i'm not really mad about all the jw stuff i've come to accept that i couldn't have done anything to prevent it i was born into a family that was already into the religion.

sinboi

Hi, Akid, nice to hear from you again. I tot you are no longer awake, your aunt put you back to sleep again. Maybe because I am already out, I see no point in reading those books you mentioned. I don't want to have anything to do with them or any other religions. I am struggling to be part of this world which I was told to be no part of for 16 yrs since I was born. I am learning to be a worldly man. Maybe I can soon write a book for you to read, titled "How to be a worldly person and enjoy life now!" Haha, that is a must read!

For those who knows me, I am now in the army. I am doing fine, able to adapt to this world after much struggling. My dad has also d/a-ed. My mom is half awake. I do not wear my army uniform back home as she might feel uncomfortable. We still eat together, talk with each other. I am down with the common cold. It's getting better now. I don't think is covid.I hope not. I just visited my mum a few days ago.