I envy you. When I was in the WT I may have felt alienated from mainsteam society, but at least I felt at home in the KH.
Now I just feel alienated, period.
I am very keen to understand how you can feel such solidarity with mainstream society. Isn't it just a cult writ large with its own silly rules and prejudices? Its own outgroups?
Being a JW has made me cynical of all groups because I can see the same patterns of behavior in them all. For that reason I've rejected the idea of being a member of any group; though I do have friends.