My waking was a slow process. The lack of love in the congregation and then always being told "it's not Jehovah doing it to you so don't punish him by taking away your worship."
I told my mother years ago that Jehovah is not at the kingdom hall. He couldn't be.
The new bible bothered me, the change in the blood stance, the overlapping generation.
Having children and explaining what we believe to them and it sounding ridiculous to me was what made me finally decide never to return. I didn't want my children to grow up in the life of fear and solitude like I did.