Hi Blackwolf
hope some on here can cheer your sorry soul up , sadness is often how we react to things around us that we have little control over , there come a time in life where you can take more control, it is at this time you must stand up for your principles and beliefs, because if your don't the days can get very dark with sadness. I'm no expert on computers but I know you can use search engines that leave no history one is "duck duck go". An other thing you can do which your dad won't be able to trace is when you go to sites like this is use a VPN ( tunnel bear is free). Hang in there and remember your remote friends on here have walked many roads and you can access wisdom beyond your years.