Brainwashing is a powerful thing. You may do research on the internet, you may intellectually know all of the ugly truths (false prophecies, new and old light, flip flops, pedo paradise, overlapping BS, their ARC lies etc - the list is lengthy) but completely ridding yourself of the damage done to your prefrontal cortex, is a difficult thing for some folks.
I have been out for over 40 years, but some of the crap still remains despite efforts to purge it and replace it with the truth about what they teach.