i think my parents got seriously worried when they came home one day, and found me rehearsing a musical play with my brother (and dam - he was very reluctant to be involved) in which i played the lead role of a prostitute that did strip tease. (think i was about 12).
looking back -- i acknowledge the 'serious' crushes i got on other boys from about age 5....
but to me, i think an incident when i was 10, would have told me the worst, if only i had known what the hell it meant.
we were living at merimbula on the south coast of nsw.... and had a weekly visit to bega for shopping.
the local chemist *** who liked to promote causes - had devoted a window display to the police boys club - (a youth club ran by the police) -- it (among other stuff) featured a big photograph of about 100 naked boys going swimming at a camp held by the police boys club.
the sight of all those naked arses fascinated me... i rationalised, of course, and thought it was the camping ethos (LOL)......
this must have worried my parents also... for i was forbidden to look at this pic. my brother used to score brownie points by telling my parents when i 'peeked'....
maybe you can see where this is heading.....
1. i do not think that there were any 'gay' influences in my life..
2. there were certainly none in the community (homosexuality was well and truly hidden in those days). the only mention in the newspaper, was when some poor guy would be arrested.
3. i was never molested by an older person, or even a younger person. chee...!
4. but i was often acccused of being a 'poofter' by other kids (after puberty). which made me determined to be NOT a poofter.!, even tho i had never done anything sexual to anothr guy.
5. i had parents that were like everyone elses'.. just plain folks..neither my father or maother were weak or wishywashy. i loved them both! and they loved me and my siblings..(hey! and my mother is still alive, think she is 96 this year)
so what were the societal/environmental factors that contributed to my being gay???
i cannot point to any -- can you?
i cannot explain -- i cannot give you reasons, anymore, than you can explain being str8.
of course, there is the freudian thought, that everyone has the potential to be bi-sexual! which begs the question, why doesn't everyone act on it ?.... i think this is where societal pressure can have an affect, and influence people.
but, i am not bi-sexual, even tho i was married.
finally a message for christians -- don't be so full of fascist shit!!!!!!!!!
*** btw - i found out in later years, that he also used to put anti-jw stuff in his window also!!!!!