IWish4Truth,
I feel sorry for you, but this may be a good thing in the long run. JWs cannot be true friends as they have to be worried about being seen talking to you, and you can never really completely open up to them, for fear of being reported to the elders for a non-conforming comment.
So, do your best to forget them. The good news is that at 32, you are young enough to make friends outside the JWs and to live a full life.
Do something you are interested in with other people. If you believe in God, try out several churches. You will find that Christendom has been given a bad rap by the JWs. Most people in Christendom are more loving than JWs. For one thing, there is no shunning.
Join a chess club, or a dance club. When you interact with people, you will make friends, and maybe find a mate for life.
Stay with our discussion board. Friends made over the Internet can make life more rich. And in my case, the Internet is what brought my sweet Windrider into my life.
As for your smoking, that is your choice. Decide what you want to do. I smoke about 4 times a year. Why? Because I want to. Is it a smart choice? Maybe not, but it is my choice and after a lifetime of people telling me what to do, I am going to make my choices, even if I am wrong.
Richard