Posts by staronbrdway

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I think we've been found out!

by TweetieBird in

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there have been a few things that have happened the past couple of weeks that makes me think that the word is being spread that we are "apostate.".

first, a sister that i have known since i was a teenager, looked me dead in the eyes and did not even acknowledge me, twice in the same store.

that didn't bother me because i have never liked her.

staronbrdway

aren't True christians ( aka Jehovahs witnesses) NOT supposed to have a thanksgiving dinner!!?? BIG OOOOPS there!! :-\

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My truth ....

by BobsGirl in

i have tried to tell my story several times.... and faltered.

with much kind encouragement, i will try one more time.

my story is not a short one ... please bear with me.

bobsgirl....I'm Spencer...i have posted something on here before...but haven't been on in a LONG time......I was reading your story....well okay i was actually searching this site in hopes of finding other gay people....that's what my last post was about ...but I found your story....and I just can't NOT write my story now...i have to tell the whole thing...so here it is : When I was born, my father was disfellowshipped...at this point he had been disfellowshipped for about 10 years......he was reinstated when I was 5 and it was at that poing that I started going to meetings...of course because he would take me....I remember them very well....My mother was opposed at that point...but when I was 7 she herself got baptized (something i forgot....only my immediate family is in the "truth"). I remember for some years going to meetings and conventions and the like but never really being taught anything about the religiong, just being expected to know what I was to do...and so at the age of 13 I got baptized...I didn't even know who Jehovah was..I just did it because I thought that's what I was supposed to do. apparently i was good enough for the elders. so I wasbaptized and a year later I came to realize that I'm gay. I mean..I remember from when I was maybe 7 years old being in love with the host to shop till you drop and then I remember when I was 10 my neighbor and I "played" with eachother. for a few years now I have been struggling with who I am and what I am....I being now 17 know that I'm gay and that I CAN NOT change. I remember when I was 15 my mom read my journal and found out that I "thought" I was gay. and so one night after I came home from swing choir at school there wasa note in my room saying that she read my journal and she wasn't surpised( i've always been feminine) and that she and my father loved me and would help me get thru it as if it were some phase or something. and that they were taking me out of public school and we were switching to the other local congregation. This congregation turned out to be worse than my old one, the guys there all hate me, I have ONE good friend but she thinks that I can/want to change, and my whole circuit somehow knows that i'm gay and there are rumors flying all over about me, even people I don't know , know who i am and hate me. but back to my mother, I know that she lvoes me and I know my father loves me. and I know that if my mom wasn't a freeking witness that she would care, because she has told me that she doesn't wnat me pretending for her or for anyone else. but then my parents won't letme go hang out with my "worldy" friends or friends that are gay. because they're bad influences. okay If I was old enough to get baptized then i'm old enough to 1) know that I'm gay and 2) make my own choices when it comes to association.
I'm so sick of jw's thinking that they know how the world works and thinking that gay people can change. and that I can change, and that ugh! I'm so frustrated!!!! my father thinks that I can change, and he wants me to and thinks that I want to....last year I was publicly reproved because i had oral sex... I told the presiding overseer what happened.....and so we had to have a HUGE meeting with the elders and all this crap...ugh..it was insane. okay i'm getting myself all worked up here...and my story is a BIG MESS and not making any sense so I'm going to stop.
anyway my point is that, I HATE BEING A WITNESS AND I CAN'T WAIT TO GET OUT! it's a cult, it's a serious cult, and sometimes I wish that they would have just dfed me way back when.

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gay JW's

by staronbrdway in

i would love it if any other gay witnesses would e-mail [email protected]'m new to this whole discussion group thing so don't make fun of m :-p but um, i have a lot to say about the whole being a gay jw thing....but don't want to say it here, lol so just e-mail me.. hope to talk to you soon.. sod

staronbrdway

hey think!!! thanks a lot!! lol.....I hate being a JW so much...i mean i'm only 17 and I understand that i'm not an "adult" yet.....but my parents like since i've come out they've been trying to completely over take all aspects of my life...well my dad anyway, i mean i know they love me and my mom really could care less if i'm gay she just doens't want me leaving the truth...but that's just it...i can't be both, so i'm choosing the "path" that makes me the happiest.....and that's to leave the truth and live a gay life.
I'm sure i'll be talking to you again soon......

10

gay JW's

by staronbrdway in

i would love it if any other gay witnesses would e-mail [email protected]'m new to this whole discussion group thing so don't make fun of m :-p but um, i have a lot to say about the whole being a gay jw thing....but don't want to say it here, lol so just e-mail me.. hope to talk to you soon.. sod

staronbrdway

hi!
hehehe, thanks bunches!! I have actually been to that site...My friend Dan who is an Ex-JW sent me the link a while ago actually but i haven't had a chance to check it out. I'm only 17 , lol, but i know a lot about lots of stuff just from being a gay jw :-D hehe and my boyfriend actually is a witness too!!!! hehehe it's so perfect.
I'm gonna go check out that site now tho. hope to talk to you soon.
~*spence

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gay JW's

by staronbrdway in

i would love it if any other gay witnesses would e-mail [email protected]'m new to this whole discussion group thing so don't make fun of m :-p but um, i have a lot to say about the whole being a gay jw thing....but don't want to say it here, lol so just e-mail me.. hope to talk to you soon.. sod

staronbrdway

I would love it if any other gay witnesses would e-mail [email protected].....I'm new to this whole discussion group thing so don't make fun of m :-P but um, i have a lot to say about the whole being a gay JW thing....but don't want to say it here, lol so just e-mail me.
hope to talk to you soon.
SOD