I guess I am the type of person that once I have made a deep and thoughtful decision, it would be like moving a mountain to change my mind. Having spent 30 years in loyal devotion to the WTS and then discovering I had been duped... there were months and months of mental anguish, heavy prayer and staying away from the Kingdom Hall that helped me come to the decision I did. Once I had made up my mind and then told others about this, there was NO attraction at all to ever return to the inside of a Kingdom Hall OR any of the WTS teachings.
This is along the same idea back when I was divorced....that I was told (by several people) that I would have moments of longing for the marriage and regret for having been divorced in the 60's. I can truly state that never for one moment....did I ever experience that regret, in fact, I was thrilled to be away from a hideous situation. Much the same with the WTS---despite being shunned by everyone I knew---deep down I was relieved to be OUT of that ratrace and everything I was "expected" to do according to the WTS. I never once gave returning TO ANY OF IT a second thought.
The "evil world" and the folks in it.....are nowhere near as frightening as the WTS purports them to be and, as I have found, nowhere near as frightening as those in the Kingdom Halls were. It COULD be that MY attitude about others that do not worship as I do, has lightened up and I am much more tolerant than I was AS a JW! (shudder) I no longer determine who will be my friend by where they happen to go to worship.
Annie