I SO understand the part of your heart that longs for the years of freindships that you thought were your spiritual brothers and sisters....bonded forever from this life and into another one in a paradise on earth.
I developed many friendships like this living in three states and having been an active member in four different Kingdom Halls. I had also been the devoted, loyal and obedient WTS follower that had discarded all the friends I had from High School and ignored all the relatives that were not "following Jehovah" as I was directed to do.....so I had pretty much isolated myself to ONLY other WTS devotees by the time I decided the organization was a complete fraud.
Living in a very small town, and being disabled...."making friends" in the usual way presented many problems for me....and being 58 years of age when I walked away from the WTS, made it very difficult to not feel quite lonely. I was so blessed to have the internet not only to help me become aware that I had been sucked in by a cult, but also to find some of the greatest and most terrific former JW friends I could ever hope to meet...if only by email, mailing lists and EXJW forums.
As with anything else in life, you have to weigh the odds, see what works the best for you, and go for it. Volunteering for a worthy cause and doing for others....joining clubs that are hobby and interest-oriented, or visiting different churches that interest you will also help to find folks of like mind that you can feel comfortable being around. The rest should fall into place.
We have the freedom to choose what we want to do and the freedom to choose who we want to spend our time with....no longer bound to the ever-growing list of the cannots and the do nots that the GB keep thinking up every year to keep their cult followers busy in servitude to THEM and delivering THEIR literature.
We have been FREED from an evil and dangerous cult.....and with common sense and a feeling of anticipation....our lives and our choices are OURS!
hugs,
Annie