Hello and welcome.
I am also trying to fade without destroying family relationships. Sometimes I just want to explode and tell them what I really think, it is not easy. Trying to balance this religion which you don't believe, with your own mental health and family relations can be exhausting. I know I am over it all, and I have only woken up to it a few months ago.
People here can relate, which helps. It is amazing how many stories and situations that I read here ring true. All the best with the fade, see you around the forum.