Apostate - catch me if you can
Flickering lights (this film is part of my name)
House of carts
thanks to the searcher and diogenesister i've come up with this topic.
far from the madding crowd.
my situation since i've become inactive.
Apostate - catch me if you can
Flickering lights (this film is part of my name)
House of carts
the gb has recently said that the brothers are generously contributing lots of money (at gunpoint it seems!
) so why with a billion dollar annual income do they demand more cash?
they have staunched the outward flow of money on paid preachers, zone overseers and bethel expenses and stalled the promised worldwide luxury buildings projects..
all warm and fluffy this month after the utterly laughable 'bread' broadcast.
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i'll always be grateful to the australian royal commission for allowing us to see this duplicitous, lying, creep, shown up as a snivelling, suck up, asshole, taken completely out of his self appointed authoritarian comfort zone.. anyway, a not too interesting broadcast i have to say..
this has been tough.
very tough actually.
because i'm so integrated into things including certain tasks which i can't say as it would be a dead giveaway i find myself constantly bombarded by things.. i'm literally a lying every day.
I feel with you. I'm looking for a way to fade, but at the moment: no chance. I can't step down, this will make to much noise. I have make them to kick me for a stupid reason (not enough hours or so). But until today, nothing works. It's so bad.
You lie, you cheat only to survive all these trash. It's tough.I'm very happy at the moment, I could wake up a friend, or I think so. But only one in a crowd.
did any one notice that the monthly broadcast on jw tv is being treated like a meeting similar to the old book study arrangement?.
at our kh, in uk, all congregations meeting at the hall have a monthly arrangement for this.
some have a group arrangement and alternate between family homes to watch the broadcast and some use the kh on weekends.. this arrangement in our congregation, at least, is being treated as a meeting for each of the groups.
Not such an arrangement in my cong. But I hear about something like this. If anybody ask, I tell them I like to look it for my own, it's better to follow and I can stop in between and think about it. I only read the summary on the websites, so I'm mostly up to date.
But seeing Lett perform the show in the hall or with a group of dubs, it's more then I can take.
I think, nearly all congs got a beamer or videoscreens, so we will have more and more broadcast-style meetings.
have you noticed how witnesses feel that they need to use an "excuse" or "reason" for any big personal decision they make?.
for instance, if they want to move to another part of the world it is "to serve where the need is greater, or to help the truth" (rather than "we just wanted to move to....because we have always wanted to live there").
or if they want a holiday many will say "oh we will "help the local brothers while we are there..." .
It's a way to cover my life.
Holidays: I need it because there's so much stress at work and in the cong. Need to recover. Don't preaching and don't argue with this.
Big car: it's better for preaching, help brothers and take people to the cong.
Big flat: better for inviting brothers and sisters.
Give up CLAM-membership: have to care for an older sister and not sure if I can be present every time.
But a lot of dubs hide the materialistic world behind such phrases, yes. If they move to an other place in the world, they mostly uber-dubs which not able to live a normal live.
the wife leaves it all around, not sure if this is by design i don't think so since the return to jah brochure was never left out.
it drives me a bit nuts but haven't done anything about it.
looking for ideas on what i should do?
so i am awoken for several years now (never really bought the cool aid) but for family reasons i am still enduring everything.
but my wife knows ... .
anyway so yesterday we had this boring meeting and as i was sitting there trying to make time pass faster i looked around me and i thought who else feels the same as me and is completely bored?
At the moment I have to. Yes, it's hard. Its part of my plans I work at the moment, I hope I have to step down the next time. Will make them kick me to start my fade and not to step down on my own. Should be a very cool WTF-moment in the cong. Until this happens, I try to wake up others. At this moment it worked!
You know: If you want an apostate friend, you have to make a friend an apostate!
so i am awoken for several years now (never really bought the cool aid) but for family reasons i am still enduring everything.
but my wife knows ... .
anyway so yesterday we had this boring meeting and as i was sitting there trying to make time pass faster i looked around me and i thought who else feels the same as me and is completely bored?
I think you can't discover every awoken. I hope so, don't crush my plans of fading. I have to attend the meetings (MS) and so I fake a big part of it. But from the outside I look perfect: coloured WT, some text on the side (BS means biblestudy, please don't missunderstand.), answers,...
If you know me, you only know I'm a critical thinker, sometimes very critical. But unless you know me very good, you think I'm full in. I hope there a lot of people in the cong awoken but to afraid to show it.