Oh (((theinfamousone))) I am so sorry for your loss.
What a true, faithful, marvelous friend your cat was to you through all those years. What a special friend when you so needed a friend. How very many subtle life lessons he taught you about love and friendship.
There in no consolation really, for that will come later on when time brings the happier memories of your friend to your mind. Right now there is just raw grief and self imposed guilt and lonelyness and missing him. As his friend you did the most difficult and kindest thing for him that had to be done; you saved him from suffering and pain that would have been incurred in a battle that could not have been won. You were honored and privileged to have known him as your friend.
If It Should Be
If it should be that I grow frail and weak
An pain should keep me from my sleep
Then you must do what must be done
For this, the last battle, cannot be won.
You will be sad, I understand
Don't let your grief then stay your hand.
For this day, more than the rest
Your love and friendship stand the test.
We've had so many happy years
What is to come can hold no fears
Would not want me to suffer so
When the time comes please let me go.
Take me where my needs they'll tend
Only, stay with me to the end
And hold me firm and speak to me
Until my eyes no longer see.
I know in time you will see
It is a kindness you do to me
Although my tail its last has waved
From pain and suffering I have been saved.
Don't grieve it should be you
Who has to decide this thing to do
We've been so close we two these years
Don't let your heart hold any tears.
So I am glad, not that she's gone
But that this earth she roamed and lived upon
Was my earth, too, that I had closely known
And loved her and that my love I'd shown.
Tears over her departure?
Nay - a smile
That I had walked with her a little while.
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