Posts by terafera

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Venting. Need some ideas. (long)

by Mimilly in

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i need to vent because i feel like i'm going to explode.

please bear with me while i 'try' to describe what is going on.

in less than two weeks my baby graduates high school.

terafera

The fact that I came from hell and was able to break many vicious cycles, proves that those around me when I was growing up could have done the same.

Mimilly...seriously, are you living in my head? You, Lauralisa and I need to get together and have a long good talk. We all sound so much alike. Your quote above is something I say to my husband almost every day.

I used to make excuses for the abuse I went through, they didnt know better, my mother was abused by her mother, etc.... but now I am a mother and love my son more than life itself. I cannot imagine finding joy in hurting him...so how could my mother do that to me? It makes me angry that she didnt love us kids more, enough to break the cycle.

All I can do is be happy and thank God every day that I was born with more sense than my parents. So were you. Thank God you arent your parents. Be thankful that you are blessed enough to realize your blessings, and that you treat your children with respect, so that your daughter isnt fleeing out the door to leave you (like I was).

You have so much love in your post...please write it down and tell your daughter everything you said to us. I know to this day, if my mother could only say 'I love you' and mean it, I would crumble to my knees. What greater gift could you give but a mother's love? New shoes, purses, money..its all crap. Your love is time indefinate, will teach her how to be a good woman, a loving mother. You are worth more than all the gold in the world.

I think its hard for anyone to be a good parent, but for people like us, who went through hell growing up, it makes us even more special. The fact that we CAN love says volumes about our spirit and will.

Like someone said earlier (I'm sorry, I can't see who posted on the last page right now) but I definately think some of it is grieving. There are times when for no reason, I just feel like bursting into tears. Then when I do some soul searching, it could be because someone was gentle with me, was extremely kind or forgiving. I guess it just overwhelms me how much good there is out there...when it was so foreign to me growing up. I wish I was right there when you were crying all alone..please know, over the many miles that separates us, that I am right by your side, stroking your hair and whispering,'just let it out, it'll be okay'.

Please email me! I would love to talk to you more and hope things look better. I know sometimes everything falls down on me too.... hopefully tomorrow the clouds will break a little and let some sun back in.

All my love and prayers to you and your family,

Deb

Edited by - terafera on 13 June 2002 3:36:15

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I'm not being Notified! :(

by terafera in

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i used to love getting my jw.com notifications that someone replied to my post!

it was the only way i could keep up the different coversations.... has anyone else noticed they've stopped?

i dont get them anymore.

terafera

I used to love getting my jw.com notifications that someone replied to my post! It was the only way I could keep up the different coversations...

Has anyone else noticed they've stopped? I dont get them anymore. How am I supposed to remember all the topics I replied to? Heck, I can barely remember what day this is!

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Questions about WT illustrations

by Beck_Melbourne in

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when i was a kid....i used to look at the wt illustrations of paradise conditions and would day dream about life in the new system....i later used this same technique (shame on me) to brain wash bible students.

however...as i grew up lol (apparently!

) the illustrations changed....and became more modern.

terafera

lmbue, as an 'amateur' artist, I love to draw, paint and write children's stories. I know what you mean! The pictures have no sense of motion and do not pull you into the page.

I totally get what you're saying!

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Have any "HALL CLEANING" funny stories??

by BONEZZ in

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i remember our bookstudy groups (in my area) got the chore for a month at a time.

the bookstudy was at my home with the p.o.

as the conductor.

terafera

This is a great thread! When I first clicked on it..who knew I would have tears streaming down my face.

OrangeFatCat, that was a truly beautiful post. Made me cry. There are things like that, that I think some of us have tucked away in our hearts..never shared them with anyone. Thanks for letting us peek in. It was touching.

Mike, your story, too, touched me. I knew some of those, not hypocritical, not harsh, just loving people who loved Jehovah and did it pureheartedly. I do miss those people. That post really touched me.

Makes me chuckle, the Kingdom Hall cleaning stories. What, the backs of the chairs werent supposed to be wiped down every week? *blushes innocently* Yep, I was one of those who tried to look busy...wiping armchairs and the backs of seats.

I have memories of standing on the platform, giving a talk. As a young girl, I knew I would never be able to address the congregation. I had always wanted to give a talk, not some recited drivel, but something sincere and moving for people. I would stand there, pretend to look at my notes and look at the empty seats. I would ask people to turn to John so and so, pretend to read a scripture and continue preaching to the attentive audience. Inside I knew I would never get to realize my dream there... make-believe was all it was ever going to be.

Edited by - terafera on 13 June 2002 1:4:34

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Questions about WT illustrations

by Beck_Melbourne in

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when i was a kid....i used to look at the wt illustrations of paradise conditions and would day dream about life in the new system....i later used this same technique (shame on me) to brain wash bible students.

however...as i grew up lol (apparently!

) the illustrations changed....and became more modern.

terafera

Hey Beck! Good to see ya! I always enjoy your posts.

Dang girl, you sure did have alot of time on your hands! LOL Inquiring minds wanna know! Actually, I thought some of the very things that you did... what always got me was, they would tell you how we would be able to learn about ANYTHING, do deep research on any hobby we had, travel...yet in every damn picture there would be a couple with plain clothes, picking apples and their kids with a basket of vegetables! I used to tell my parents,'But I dont want to pick vegetables and apples every day! I also wondered how would we travel, without airplanes that pollute the skies.
When I was little I would try to picture myself there.. a big house, nice yard, and sitting there, bored as hell and picking apples. A sister once told me that there would be daily meetings to serve Jehovah. I remember thinking,'oh great! As if 3 nights a week wasnt bad enough!'
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Edited by - terafera on 12 June 2002 23:36:18

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Spider in woman's ear

by StinkyPantz in

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that's just wrong!

i feel sorry for her gyn!!

!

terafera

OMG you guys are GROSSING ME OUT!!!!!

Ugh!

That reminds me of when I saw one of the Star Trek movies, where they pull out little slimy wormie things and slip them in people's ears...they would cause pain and make people crazy!!!

Yikes! I'm going to stomp on anything that moves in my house now! That is so damn gross!!!!

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Memorable Prayers meetings / assemblies???

by invisible in

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any outstanding prayers that you can remember / recall?.

we had one brother here who was renowned for his very long prayers, sometimes running to as much as 15 minutes in length.

congregational members would have to leave halfway through to catch taxi's etc, he was a dear old soul though, in his younger days before he kicked the bucket, he was a wheelwright, probaly one of the last of his particular craft, repairing horse drawn carriages.. another brother at the convention was known for the shortest prayer, he just said thankyou 3 times and that was it.. once we had the co visiting, george hilton his name was, cheerful old sod from yorkshire, it was the aux pio and reg pio meeting.

terafera

LOLOLOLOL

It's posts like these that make my day and crack me up!

I knew one elder who was pretty hefty and would sit, legs wide open for bookstudy. His crotch was visibly trying to bulge from his 4 sizes too small slacks and it would be so embarrassing for us....during the prayer, he would lean forward, making it bulge even more. Even his shirt was stretching at the buttons..I always wondered if they would make it through the whole meeting.

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Funny Question To Raise A Laugh & Spirits ....

by invisible in

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god, he perplexes me.

sometimes i want to give him a clip around the ear, other times i feel sorry for him, maybe he too gets lonely at times, who knows.. anyway, i got to thinking sometimes, being made in the image of god an all that, that the human body ain't half a weird and wonderful machine.

now, what blueprint did god use for the creation and clay mould of our physical form?.

terafera

I wouldve made my butt smaller and my thighs a little more firmer

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We Need Money

by Sam Beli in

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francois said in another thread: this will take some organization and some money.

he was talking about this need in order to start an effort aimed toward holding conventions.

he called them apost-0-conventions.

terafera

Very good ideas... I have thought the same thing. There doesnt seem to be enough 'organization' among many ex-jws. I mean, getting together for association is fine, but there doesnt seem to be much going on in the way of moving forward, making steps toward getting the word out about blood reform, child abuse, etc.

One other thing: let’s not call our efforts “Apost-0-“ anything. Words derived from
“apostate” are all derogatory and this disparaging term is applied by the WTS in an effort
to “stop-thought” on the part of their adherents. Lets come up with a positive
term/name for ourselves that reflects the good work that we wish to accomplish on
behalf of our friends and family.

I agree wholeheartedly! Suggestions are needed.... how about LifeNet or FreeLine.. I dunno..something that gives you the image of a person throwing out a lifesaver, trying to save your loved ones?

Interesting post!

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Hi I'm new

by bonovox in

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ok, so i kinda stumbled onto this site.

i have many questions, but first a bit about myself:.

i was born and raised in the truth.

terafera

Hi Bono,

Nice to meet ya! I'm always excited to see a new 'face' round here!

I too, love Jehovah while not the Organization. When I first came here, I was an inactive Witness, but now do not feel any urge to go back. I have found a much more freeing, close and loving relationship with God now that I dont go to the Hall. Think about it, did you like people telling you how to talk to your Father, how He thinks of you...dictating every little part of your life? I have found that I can still be a Christian without jumping through the jw hoops.

VioletAnai said: Pray to Jah, don't listen to the wtbts for now or this board, just pray and form that
relationship with Him...he will strengthen you if you ask!.
I understand what she's saying here... it is important to rely on God and strengthen your relationship with Him. The problem is, you cannot 'not listen to the wtbts' and be in good standing as a jw. When you enter the Hall, you are opening yourself to every little 'tweeking' they desire to do with you. I thought for myself for years as a jw, and was looked at as a 'rebel' and a freak. Now that I'm out, I see I wasnt so wierd, just an intelligent person who thought for myself.

If Barbie is so popular, why do you have to buy her friends?