I agree with LisaRose - What you have been through is merely a Wintery period of life .........After Winter comes Spring ........regardless of our age ! I was taught this valuable lesson by a Buddhist at a time when I was trapped in a severe depression [30 months] in 2010 ! She was right - I am now in the Summer /
The season of your life will change.
btw If I or any here on this forum can assist and support you further don't hesitate to communicate ! Just PM and I will link you to my contact details.