How more you know, how more you realise you don't know.
The same with your state of mind. How more you realise, you see that you can not always be happy.
Always happy says a lot about someone. It is not realistic, it's fake.
So, since being out of jw.org, i'm happy about many aspects of life, and less happy about some other subject. And try to grow, make choices, and learn from things that went wrong.
Life is that what goes unexpected.
G.