I've been kicking myself for the way I behaved....I feel like an A#1 first class, charter member jack-ass. Yes, I came on wayyyy too strong.
Yes, I have done some soul-searching...She's been married and divorced twice, and has children (grown) by both marriages. In other words, trying to put this nicely...two other guy's have been "inside her", and that hurts me deeply...but I love her, and I accept her the way she is.
Your responce of Sept 29th, you said that if I am able to break through, (she) will show me the deepest, most incredible love that (I) could ever know." That brought tears to my eyes, because that's the kind of love I want to show Angel.
No, this is not an obession...it's love alright...She is a beautiful woman physically, a little "heavy", but that's ok...but this woman has a personality that...I don't know...there is just something "cosmic" there. The first time I saw her in shorts, well, you know how thigh's look on a woman that's a little heavy...but I saw that, and I said to myself, "I don't care...there's MUCH more to this woman than just physical beauty.
And don't get me wrong...it's NOT UGLY..not at all! Yes, I do know of a favorite Mexican restaurant she likes, I could try to meet up with her "acidentally" as you put it, but that may be boarderline lying and I don't want to lie to her - at all. Besides, she's very sharp.
Infact, it's like she know's me pretty well sometimes.
She call's me a "sponge" because I pick up the SLIGHTEST detail about her. But she's the same way about me. Sometimes, we'd even finish each others sentences! It seem's like from time to time, she and I would make contact...but me not knowing her "trainned" mind, I screwed up every time.
She's on the internet alot, email and such...I wish she could read some of these letter's. I've looked at some other post, and didn't see her name or email...