pon: " I await a big bang that showers me with goodness. --- Will Jehovah(tm) speed it up in his own time?
The big bang was actually very, very small, but if you were not there, you would not be here now. the goodness ( if any) is in the now, so: create it.
It will not be sped up, (that is why so many jws are fed up.) but as you age, the fixed markers, years, month, days seem to speed by faster. (it is all in the mind).