I want to, and I'm trying.
There was a time when I felt I was lost and didn't know what to believe. I went to a restaurant, and prayed before I ate. A man asked me, "Are you a Christian?" "Yes, I am", I answered. And he said, "We ( he was with his wife ) are Christians, too. We are 7th Day Advantists." And I became afraid that he might ask what I was. What am I? Who am I? I'm not a JW or Catholic or anything. I was nobody.
JW's teaching had been my only Christianity in my life so far. God had been rather fearful, more like terrifying in their depiction. Don't try to deny it, you, JWs. I've heard enough of "You should do this otherwise you'd die at Armageddon." This is a threat like "Do it or you die" by an extortioner. Before I became a JW, I used to go to this one church which happended to be quite bad. I'm planning to search for my place for worship.
Sorry, comforter. I don't want to go back to the WTS. They have hurted so many people so many times, and I have a scar that is not going to go away for eternity.