Hi Ana!
Excellent topic!
I remember being troubled by the fact that here were a group of men,untrained in any aspect of mental health,making life shattering decisions for the r/f.
In retrospect this is what I observed.
I wasn't fearful for myself as much as for the others.
I did my best to avoid having contact with any of them,even tho it happened a few times.
What I saw was power and control issues that were fed by wts ideology. Ofentimes men who had no sense of power in their secular lives makin up for it in the cong. And especially with women.
They used shame and guilt techniques to keep the women feeling unworthy and unequal. I observed the reinforcing of patriarchal values, keeping women dependent and powerless.What brilliant and talented sisters there were. All their abilites wasted to keep the totalitarian social norm of the cong.
I saw men with absolutely no idea of childrens cognitive and emotional developmental stages,emotionally brutalizing them.
And I saw them enjoying this power waaaaay too much.
What I saw was a group of men who were hazardous to your health. Physically,emotionally psychologically and spiritually. Thats' why I didnt last too long after baptism.
I'd go out into the world. Be appreciated for competency and abilities. Then go to a meeting and disassociate that real person into the subjugated persona I was told I had to be.......a real sick dichotomy. Frustrating as all hell too lol.
Just a few thoughts hope I didnt ramble.
Warm regards,Tina